Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
because in a lot of ways I am.
I realize how messed up.I am from my horrible.upbringing. There are many things I am supposed.to know and do for a woman in my 30s but I dont. I am so frustrated, tired and angry. Sigh. Now I am struggling to get myself together and learn what people in the teens already know. I have disdain,.disgust and hatred for my mother, my siblings and those from my community whom went out of their way to abuse me and beat me down mentally, emotionally and physically. My spirit has been broken and I dont know how I am going to keep myself striving. Sometimes I wish the death angel.would come for me and this is one of those times.
Does anyone here get where I am coming from?
I realize how messed up.I am from my horrible.upbringing. There are many things I am supposed.to know and do for a woman in my 30s but I dont. I am so frustrated, tired and angry. Sigh. Now I am struggling to get myself together and learn what people in the teens already know. I have disdain,.disgust and hatred for my mother, my siblings and those from my community whom went out of their way to abuse me and beat me down mentally, emotionally and physically. My spirit has been broken and I dont know how I am going to keep myself striving. Sometimes I wish the death angel.would come for me and this is one of those times.
Does anyone here get where I am coming from?
The good news is that skills can be learned at any time.
https://www.e-tmf.org/downloads/Grounding_Techniques.pdf start here, a good crash course in coping with trauma.
This is a good 31 day self guided learning program. The site is aimed at men, but hey, all skills are usable by everyone.
http://www.artofmanliness.com/category/heading-out-on-your-own-2/
I had to do the same sort of thing when i set out in the world after 16 years of "don't bother me, daddy's drinking/mommy has a headache" so just make lists of what you WANT to do, and get into the routine of looking stuff up.
Another skill that makes life bearable is to have a philosophy so that life has meaning, This one is good for people in this situation. http://aeon.co/magazine/philosophy/why-stoicism-is-one-of-the-best-mind-hacks-ever/
http://opinionator.blogs.nytimes.com/2015/02/02/how-to-be-a-stoic/?_r=0
No one has time to read but everyone has time to listen. So educate yourself with free audiobooks. https://archive.org/details/librivoxaudio
In your shoes, I would start with these. https://archive.org/search.php?query="new%20thought"%20AND%20collection%3Alibrivoxaudio
Also, take this test to get an inventory of what you know and what you should probably focus on for 2015 and 2016.
http://duluth.umn.edu/careers/inventories/skills_test_intro.html