I know how you feel. Have you been to a psydoctor yet? It took awhile for me to get to that point, but it saved my life. My trauma was on repeat in my head, it was all I saw, all i thought about. I found a doctor and got some medicine to take when I have a flashback, panic attack. My sleep started to get better. Music and yoga helped me too.

I still have have flashbacks, panic attacks and wake up at night (sometimes), but its a night and day difference from where I was. I'm here if you need to talk, or anything.
sending a hug your way ;)
~rainne

MeGirl, I second rainne's advice. If you have symptoms of ptsd, then you should see a doctor. And a counselor. Both are important and serve different roles. I also note that, according to your profile, you are only 15 yrs old. Have you talked to your parents? Can you talk to your parents or another trusted adult? I don't think you should be going through this alone. Please get help and support.

i have no one to talk to right now. but i have a bf, and i started to tell him what was going on. and my parents think im a bad kid who brought it on myself. i wish i could talk to my dad but he dies when i was 5 so... but thank you for the advise

Go see someone about it. I have been struggling on my own with anxiety attacks, flashbacks, memory loss (I trigger into a panic attack, will continue functioning normally, but lose all memory of what I did after the panic attack) nightmares, I get physically ill (shakes, vomiting) and I freeze up sometimes, again, I am there and behaving normally, I can remember what I do, but I say or do things I didn't want to. Example, someone yells at me (could be silly, "Your hot!" or seriously rude) and I have a voice in my head saying "Shut up, your rude!" but all that comes out is "thanks" in the most polite tone. Literally cannot say/do what I want to.
Years I have been dealing with this. Cause maybe I would get over it? Or it will go away? I mean, the flashbacks have to stop right? Someday I can sit through a movie and not have a panic attack, right?
Yeah, I'm seeing a therapist now, it's helping, I needed to do it, it does not just go away. I wish you the best of luck, and if you need help finding one on a sliding scale (charge according to your income) or its a financial concern, talk to me! I'm trading services (I run a service based business) to pay for my sessions!

I too have this issue.i was just diagnosed with PTSD.and im still trying to learn how to deal with it