He just keeps pushing and pushing to stay together. He just keep sweeping it all under the rug. He just keeps trying to be nice and do all the right things. He just keeps trying to touch me. He isn't getting it. I can't say it any more clear than I am done and I want a divorce. He just acts like I am not serious. HE IS DRIVING ME NUTS NUTS NUTS. Still under one roof. He isn't leaving. Funny how just two weeks ago he was screaming at me. Now he loves me and treating me like a queen? Whatever. I have thru the cycle hundreds of time and feel like an idiot for putting up with it. I am totally venting again. The more he pushes to keep it together the harder I want to run. I want out. I feel like a caged animal. Why isn't he accepting it? Is this a normal reaction???? I am sure it is.
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