Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
My H moved out of the house on Saturday. I really thought I'd be more emotional than I am, but I'm not. I thought I'd have some sadness, but I don't. I feel a little guilty that I don't feel badly. I guess this is just proof that it needed to happen.
I spent Saturday night cleaning the house, specifically his former bedroom that I moved back into and his bathroom. I swept, dusted, and scrubbed and I feel that I almost cleaned him out of there. LOL I took whatever belongings he left behind and placed them in the spare (empty bedroom). My room is mine now! I have some things that I'd like to buy for it, like new bedding, but need to pay off some bills first and take care of the essential items.
Saturday night, my son spent the night with him, so he "wouldn't feel so depressed and alone in his new house." Poor pitiful him... He brought him home on Sunday morning so we could go to church. He told me that the house was looking good, then proceeded to tell me that the new microwave I bought is smaller than the one he took away and that his new TV is better than mine. Maybe so, but his life will still be empty, even with all the stuff.
Yesterday, I almost called him, just to talk - but I stopped myself. I can not give him the satisfaction. He called me first, but I missed the call. Oh darn. I did send him a text that I saw that I'd missed his call, but he didn't respond.
What do I feel? Mostly relief, but some bitterness over the whole situation. I also know that I will be okay. It's going to be tough at times, but I will get through it!
I spent Saturday night cleaning the house, specifically his former bedroom that I moved back into and his bathroom. I swept, dusted, and scrubbed and I feel that I almost cleaned him out of there. LOL I took whatever belongings he left behind and placed them in the spare (empty bedroom). My room is mine now! I have some things that I'd like to buy for it, like new bedding, but need to pay off some bills first and take care of the essential items.
Saturday night, my son spent the night with him, so he "wouldn't feel so depressed and alone in his new house." Poor pitiful him... He brought him home on Sunday morning so we could go to church. He told me that the house was looking good, then proceeded to tell me that the new microwave I bought is smaller than the one he took away and that his new TV is better than mine. Maybe so, but his life will still be empty, even with all the stuff.
Yesterday, I almost called him, just to talk - but I stopped myself. I can not give him the satisfaction. He called me first, but I missed the call. Oh darn. I did send him a text that I saw that I'd missed his call, but he didn't respond.
What do I feel? Mostly relief, but some bitterness over the whole situation. I also know that I will be okay. It's going to be tough at times, but I will get through it!
After that day, I am amazed at how happy I am. I dont mind laying in bed at night not having him next to me. I am happy that I look at my kids and see a HUGE change in them in only a short month. I am happy that my family sees how much happier my household is.
I think that with each passing day you will see how strong you really are. Congrats on making a choice that will change your life!