I am so sorry, baby.
Please don't blame yourself. The only person you control is yourself.
You did not stand beside him with a gun pointed at his head and force him to drink alcohol or smoke weed. He has to want to quit and he does not.
Again, I am so very sorry you have to go through this.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Hang in there. Please do not blame yourself. Just keep in mind that this is a time for new beginnings.

This is a time for you.

I know it will be odd that it is sad to be rid of an addict but you still have to process the experience. Don't be too hard on yourself if you feel very emotional. Hugs

I am sorry you are hurting. I have days I miss my ex addict as well. I know with mine though, his priority will always be the pot and the pills. Also when he is using, or maybe even when he is not, he will always have other women. It's part of his lifestyle. :( He only lies when his lips are moving. I can't take the risk of stds or the continuous hurt he brings on me. It just got to where I had to sink or swim. I hope you see the beautiful person you are and all you have to offer and realize that him leaving is giving you a chance to swim. Big big hugs.

You might think that you should feel angry. But just feel whatever you are feeling. I go from being angry at him, to sad, to angry at myself to neutral. Nothing is normal when you are going through something like this. If you are waiting for the anger to come, it probably will, but it may not happen right away. Sometimes anger is good because it motivates us to wake up and get on with our lives. But just don't try to force yourself to feel anything. It will come when you are ready for it.

I lost count of how many times we broke up just cried all night friday night. worked 12 hr shift saturday today I'm just hanging with my kids. my stomach is cramping really bad right now. idk its all the stress. I'm so hurt by all the stuff he said before he left. at the same time angry too. I'm just breathing at the moment.