So recently I got a new job and my sister recently told me she got raped by two men and I sugguested her I could help her find a thereapist because they could help her way better than I could and it ended with her yelling at me that I hated her and her hanging up. So I haven't been calling back or anything. It kinda drained my energy a bit because I've always been worried about my sister since I left home. However, it's getting a bit to be too much for me. How is it hatred when I used to go to therapy? Anyways, my mother has been calling me lately with this sound I've never heard from her? Broken whimpers? She tells me to call my sister and stuff like she's drinking. And I ignore mom for the most part cause she sounded fake to me? Like maybe she's playing a thick emotional accent to make me call her. But I didn't so then mom calls me yesterday and I didn't listen to it until today. It was the  same whmpers and pauses and telling me that Sam might kill herself and she's dinking heavy and that I'm letting the devil use me and such and I quickly had to hang up cause she's always saying something on the lines of me and devils/demons and I'm tired of it honestly.

I keep having worrysome thoughts about my sister. Worried that mom and her will use this as a way to control me. Worried that she might try and kill herself. They keep saying that I'm neglecting them but I keep telling me to give me a year. So, I was hesitant on what to do and reached out to a non-emergency crisis hotline and the woman said that it sounded like they were toxic and that it was good that I had boundaries. She was mostly there to listen to me and then I called a friend outside of my immediate circle so I wouldn't burn her out about my family and she told me I had two choices, listen and get bothered or avoid them. So I decided for one last time I would text Sam and mom separately. I texted mom that since she kept calling me, I'm pushing the year to next july since she keeps calling me. And I text Sam that I was so sorry for what have happened and gave her some numbers to scuicide hotlines and possibly  free therapy. I told her that I still needed a year and for her to trust me and that I still loved her and ended the message. I have not heard from them since I left the messages. I don't know if they are going to pay attention but they can't say I didn't respond and try to explain. I'm gonna try and change my number since they don't care about my boundaries. But that's when I have the money to do so.