Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
a year ago, god began to deal with me about my preoccupations with food. through a series of events i won't go into, (it's a very long, looooong story...) he made me realize i have an eating disorder. i binge and starve. prior to god bringing this up, i honestly thought my behavior was normal.
almost 3 weeks ago, i had to take some paperwork over to my new school. this report contained the results of some testing i had done a couple years ago and it included vivid details of me being abused. reading that (this was the first time i had actually looked at the report.) made me hysterical and i had flashbacks. those flashbacks lead to me bingeing for the first time in almost a month. i still have not recovered from the ED relapse. i have been bingeing and starving a lot since i read that. i don't like therapists because i had one in high school who told my abuser i had reported her. i was beat again because of her.
i know my ED is connected to the abuse. but i am so scared to go to a therapist! what do i do? help!
almost 3 weeks ago, i had to take some paperwork over to my new school. this report contained the results of some testing i had done a couple years ago and it included vivid details of me being abused. reading that (this was the first time i had actually looked at the report.) made me hysterical and i had flashbacks. those flashbacks lead to me bingeing for the first time in almost a month. i still have not recovered from the ED relapse. i have been bingeing and starving a lot since i read that. i don't like therapists because i had one in high school who told my abuser i had reported her. i was beat again because of her.
i know my ED is connected to the abuse. but i am so scared to go to a therapist! what do i do? help!
But there are also good therapists.
If you don't look for a good one,
because you had one bad one,
you'll never benefit from the help
and healing that a good one could
provide you.
I hope you'll look around for a good one.
Please, please do.
Something similar happened to me in high school.
and that's about when I started my ED too.
I am just now getting a handle on it 20-some years later and my body has been harmed because of malnutrition.
Do look for another therapist. Tell any one you interview for the job up front about how your first therapist betrayed your trust. They have standards and rules they must adhere to. One is that they must keep your info confidential. When you have a professional to talk to, they essentially work for you. You have the upper hand. If they are not a good match for you, you let them go and move on.
I had a really hard time not seeing any type of counselor or therapist as an authority figure but it got a lot easier once I decided they were just other humans doing a job for me/with me.
They're out there and not every therapuetic relationship is a good one.
I'm sorry that your experiences have proven so unproductive.
I hope you'll consider trying again.