So, a few days ago I was contemplating my relationship with my father, how he "gave me his bleesing," to leave my house 2 weeks ago and then yesterday he said "we need to talk." He said also 2 weeks ago "I wouldn't let no man kick my ass and I would not let my daughter see it either." Then today when I was over there he said "you are going to get your self in big finacial trouble and we need to talk. You are acting weird." He also has a truck and I need to get my stuff out of my house and get it to my apartment that I have and I am still not able to because my father refused to help me move. He said that he just cant do it, that I drive him crazy. And then I remembered when I was in 8th grade and I was on a mission trip with my church in New Mexico and my father was there and there was another church group there of boys and I went outside, right outside the dorms, to the playground to swing, and the boys went out there and when I was swinging they were grabbing me, joking around, trying to stop me, and my dad walked out and saw them, and started yellling AT ME and telling me that it was my fault and he HIT ME AND GAVE ME A BLOODY NOSE! I had to walk back inside with church people looking like a dumb ass with bllod on my face at 14 yrs old! And this whole time all I have ever done is try to please my parents and make them proud of me and I am trying to say that I dont want to be in this abusive situation, but he keeps playing with my head too. He even commented on what I was wearing today, a tank top, and he said "thats just nasty."

The best thing about yesterday was that I was talking with one of my neighbors whom I love, but have been distant from since sept. because of all the drama in the neighborhood. The hub was not at the house and she and me were talking about everything since Sept. I told her that I got a place and she said "then why are you stil here?" She said "even yet, why is he here? You have an EPO, this is your house!" She was pissed that I have let him walk all over me and she said that the whole neighborhood knows that I am the one that has worked my ass of and kept this household together so he can just go and party and do his thing. She said "you need to stop worrying what people think. He has put that in your head." She also said yesterday that I need to call my dad and tell him to appologize to me and to make him come over and help me move because that is just him wanting me to stay in an abusive situation. Now hub is saying, "I will help you move.I love you that much that I will help get you out of here." My neighbor said "be careful, hes not finnished yet." This is like a nightmare. Any suggestions?????
Sorry so personal...