Hi jasgall; I hope we can help each other.I developed anorexia as a teenager and I had neglect as a child and was adopted. Sometimes my eating disorder improves; like for years, recently it has reared it's head up again.I also regularly binge.I find it useful to have a selection of food at work without foods I am likely to binge on and plan my meals.

yes,
I actually struggle with it... it did not develop until after I was in an abusive controlling relationship with my husband... we have been together for 15 years. I started binge eating very early on... In the past 3 i have also done quite a bit of purging... after binging. This is what really made me reach out for help.
I completely understand.
It is such a struggle.
i think that it is the only thing I could control.. and the one thing that made me numb.. and feel empowered.. but then I would feel guilty afterward and say I am going to start new tomorrow..
then tomorrow would come and I would do the same!
It is a struggle.
Now I am leaving my relationship. I am getting better.
things are still a bit difficult.

I also binge ate when I was in my late teens, early 20s. Trying to fill up the huge hole in the middle of my heart. I have been recovered from it for more than 20 years now, never even dream of overeating and am at a normal weight. But I remember the food hangovers and the impossibility of stopping myself from treating my body like a garbage dump. I hated myself so much then. Still have the hole, though. It's just smaller. For a while, I used sex. Then, I used relationships. Then, marriage. Now I'm trying to fill it up with self-love and friendship. I think that's healthier. But it's a long and lonely road.

I have come from a life long abusive life and I would binge just to feel good the more I ate the better I would feel but then I started counselling and the counsellor said it would be more benifical to put my pain and my anxiety and my other emotions into something other than feeding my face and making myself sick to death all of the time so I took up writting and long walks but most of all I learned to love myself with alot of effort and music and soul searching and this helped me over come the worst of worst binge eatting so now I am back to life with eating just a small amount of food and loving life more and myself too.Good Luck To You God Bless