So sorry for the intense pain you're experiencing.

Aw my friend, please, please keep your chin up. I think you are so very right about the aftermath of loving an abuser. As we've have all been gracefully reminded here many times, it is going to take "a while" to get over these relationships, very unfortunately. Not like a "normal we both just don't get along, have grown apart, etc." break-up of a relationship. And, as another big downside, to properly and fully heal we need to take whatever time it takes to rid all of our self - physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually - of the vileness we received in exchange for giving our hearts to these amazingly cruel, horrid, awful men and women.

Very unfortunate in real time. And I'm so sorry you are suffering.

What I try very hard to remind myself is that "they" (the exes) have a very minute chance of ever really living a good, purposeful, loving, caring, humble, honest existence. But the good news is...we do! If we do the time and the work (and it's painful work at times as we well know) we can create and strive to fulfill our dreams as well as maintain loving, meaningful relationships. (Wow, who would have thought a human being could do both ;-) because of WHO we are.....strong, courageous, intelligent, resourceful, kind, honest, compassionate beings who can attract light by being light.

But you know all of this, of course. Bottom line is it is what it is....and it sucks, but it will get better, much better!

XOXO

And it has not ended today. I just went into the kitchen as I wanted to take something out of the freezer for tomorrow and guess what? Freezer and Fridge not working. Thank God I have a wonderful landlord who said he would take care of it tomorrow and a great neighbor where I took all my groceries. Please God, no more this week.

Love you LT and thank you. Going to try to sleep. Exhausted.

You can't get to therapy, but you can keep doing what you are doing for now. Vent away. Keep reading, writing and helping others. It is sick how twisted and screwed up they can make us. The only advice I can offer, is to deal with the emotions. Take care of you. Be kind and gentle to you. You've been through enough and you will get through/over it. One day at a time. We're all here for you and most of us have gone through it and will probably go through it again. Praying for your strength. Great big hug!

There really is light at the end of the tunnel. I know u can't see it yet but u will.

I'm sorry that yesterday was such a difficult day. I hope that you can feel stronger soon, I know you will.

Self-care,
self-care,
SELF-CARE.

Sending you hugs
and healing prayers.

Thanks everyone, I just want to feel better. This last round with him was almost the worst.