I'm so tired of this. I'm at the End of My Rope, literally. To say I'm frustrated about it would be a Huge Understatement. My Bf - granted is NO Prize, I suppose in all Reality, since He is Abusive... but Still this isn't Easy just the same - has been contacting Another Woman a Frequent Basis through Tagged.com. I've TRIED confronting Him about it, and OF COURSE He DENIES IT even though at that Time I HAD SEEN FOR MY OWN EYES the ACTUAL MESSAGES He had sent Her ! Even when I admitted to Him that I had seen those Messages, HE STILL TRIED to DENY that there's Something going on with HER ! PLUS, since He FORCED ME to admit HOW I was able to see His Tagged.com Messages, He Prevented Me from seeing them anymore by LOGGING OUT of the Site. That's how I was able to see the Messages for awhile, because He had NEVER Logged OFF of His Tagged.com Site. NOW, TODAY He must have had a Lot of OTHER Things on His Mind, because He FORGOT to Log OFF of the Site, Again ! I stumbled upon it as I was looking over the Computer History from Earlier Today. I look over the Computer History from Time to Time to see WHAT He's been looking at Online. YES, I suppose that's NOT a Good Thing to do, since IF I had a True Healthy Loving Relationship with Him, then I would completely Trust Him. BUT TRUST must be EARNED, and can't be just GIVEN AWAY when the Other Person has Proven TIME AFTER TIME to have a habit of LYING ! So, anyways... Today when I was looking over the Computer History I noticed He had visited Tagged.com, and I clicked on it being curious to see if He was Logged OFF, or NOT, and HE WASN'T ! Now, I don't think IF You were in My Shoes, that You would have been able to resist looking at His Messages, since You would already KNOW that He's been contacting ONE Woman in Particular a LOT ! So I looked over His Messages, and found a LOT of damning evidence that He's STILL been contacting Her in a VERY UN-Appropriate Way, and DEFINITELY TRYING His Hardest to ultimately get ' WITH HER ' to FU*K HER ! Please Excuse Me for that, but it's the Truth... that's been the Principle Subject of ANY and ALL of the Messages between Them !
NOW... WHAT DO I DO ??? IF ANYTHING ????
AFTER ALL... by all Logic, I guess it's NOT as IF He's even WORTH fighting For ?! RIGHT ???!!
PLUS... IF I DARED to contact HER, and REMIND HER that He does have a GF - ( which I'm POSITIVE She does NOT know about )....HE would just end up flying into a HUGE RAGE as soon as She told Him about My Message ! I'm POSITIVE that She would Fwd. ANY Message I sent to Her, directly to Him right away !
AFTER Just LAST NIGHT... I'm Sure that He would defend Her NO Matter WHAT !... because I was in BED.. ALMOST ASLEEP...while He was Out Here at the Computer, and He came STORMING INTO the Bedroom RAVING AND SAYING THAT I MUST HAVE CONTACTED JULIE M. AND TOLD HER OFF... SINCE SHE HASN'T TALKED TO HIM RECENTLY !
I swore to Him that I HADN'T contacted Her... BUT He didn't even Believe Me. It was the TRUTH, and STILL IS... since I've NEVER contacted Her ! BUT the THING IS... WHY ON EARTH WAS HE SO UPSET AT HER NOT CONTACTING HIM RECENTLY ????? IF NOTHING was really going on between Him and Her, THEN He WOULD NOT have been that Worked UP, RIGHT ? BUT the Way He reacted about this was like a ' SLAP IN THE FACE ' to Me !!!!!! It was such an INSULT that He would be SO WORKED UP about not hearing from some Other Woman on His Tagged.com Site !
I WANT to talk to Him about it further, BUT the aggravating Truth is that I'm POSITIVE that He would simply DENY EVERYTHING... NO MATTER HOW TRUE IT REALLY IS !!!!
I apologize if I'm rambling on too much about this, but it's got Me Very Worked Up, and Upset. I don't know what to do.. IF ANYTHING... and I just WISH I could TURN OFF My Feelings about this, since right now that seems to be My ONLY OPTION.
WHAT DO YOU THINK ?????