Every day for the last year or two of my relationship.

By the last year, I also felt ill every time I turned the car into my street, knowing he would be at home ...

thank you , thats sort of made me feel better knowing its not just me or am i making it up?

without going into details i cant keep off the toilet , i feel so sick , headaches.......cant concentrate on anything.....i feel like im in fog and i cant see my way forward xx

everything is hard work , even putting a wash on?

Yep. Was like that for me too. I hope you can find a way out soon.

thank you , i know it will happen , im just waiting on a phone call today xxx
thanks so much , BIG hugs to you xxxxxx

Before I left, or, more precisely, before he moved out, I lost so much weight my ribs were sticking out (couldn't eat, was on the toilet all the time). Lifting my arms from my sides was almost more than I could do. It was just dreadful. Leaving, even if it is the best thing for you, ever, is really hard to do and emotionally draining. Hang in there. It's still worth it!

I felt that was for 4 out of the 5 yrs i was with him always thought of leaving and his manipulating ways keept me in for so long. then finally was able to leave. Even to this day I still feel sick ill whenever I see him, or someone mentions his name or anything to do with him.

I have been preparing to leave for about 2 months now, and I feel exactly the same way. I have lost weight, my digestion is off, it is difficult to concentrate at work, I have no energy for household tasks...
But I prefer feeling sick over the stress of leaving, to the depression and anxiety attacks that I was having before. It is worth it to get away from someone who makes you feel so bad about yourself.

Good luck and stay strong!

i felt that way for about two years before I left. Not so much in the morning as he was gone to work before I was up , but especially at night driving home from work. I had knots in my stomach the entire ride.

Stress does a lot to your body. When I was with him I was sick all the time. I've been out a year and haven't been sick once since I left.

Good luck on leaving. Be safe!

The marriage had
brought me to a
point where

I was suicidal.

I began feeling

radically better
the instant
I decidedd to leave.

omg, me too!!

I couldn't eat, couldn't hold anything down, slept very little (one eye open, clutching far edge of the bed,heart pounding like crazy).

my hair was falling out!!!! tons of it..lost horrendous amounts of weight..

brain fog...very badly. I was afraid I was going into early dementia..

I was weak...weak little stick arms..couldn't lift a thing!

it took me a couple of months to start feeling better, to start eating again, sleeping through the night, getting a bit of weight back..my brain came back..

and I became strong again!

8 months out, I'm stronger and physically healthier than I've been in years (but I'm also doing housecleaning, so my arms are looking mighty powerful!)

I felt like killing myself 4 times over her and still having a hard time thinking it was all me and blaming me for everything cause she kept saying she did nothing! But my suicidal is gone so fare and my counselor keeps saying mind games and her career was used against me because I was such a open book to her when I met her first and told her how I would react to things!

But still wake up sick can't sleep or eat right and trying to see if this is all my fault all the time! :(

My last abusive relationship I felt like that as we were breaking up. Like most it was a long drawn out process. I was never hungry. I went through a month where I was living off a diet of red wine which didn't help my anxiety. Once I stopped with the red wine I found I couldn't keep any food down I was constantly throwing up. Once I decided to go no contact it got worse, i even started getting these weird lower stomach spazms like id hunch forward like i was about to puke at random times all throughout the day.
But then after a month or two I was suddenly better. I feel like cutting him off was like coming off a drug. You can't get better while your still using and the height of sickness and pain comes from when you withdrawal but wait it out a bit and you'll be clean and healthy.

Oh, yes. When I was in the relationship, trying to decide whether to stay or go, I felt awful every day. It is such a stressful thing to go through. It will get better!

Yes! My husband was gone for a job out of state for 3 months this winter. When he left..I felt like myself again! I slept like a baby ( even though I was home alone), I worked out a lot, ate healthy, accomplished a lot at work, always kept up with chores...then when he came back..Bam, I was sad again, didn't have energy, couldn't sleep, I feel this anxiety whenever he comes home, or comes into the room where I am.

For me, that was a major wake up call, and that's when I started to realize that I deserved better in my life. You shouldn't feel like that all of the time in your own home with your "partner." They are no "partner" at all.