I am beginning no contact again. I had let him talk to me many times since he was waiting for me around the corner last time I did no contact. After New Years sometime was when I was on my way to work and there he was in his car. Told me "Look at me I'm shaking" "I'm so nervous" "I needed to see you" he hugged me but I did not hug him back. I told him sorry but I just do not trust him anymore and the things he did damage that can not be undone this time. He doesn't hear me, I am sure he just does not hear what he doesn't want to. Its like he just went on after I said that like I didn't say anything at all. I told him I had to go I'll be late for work. Oh I'll talk to you later, I love you. Such bullshit (excuse the language) but I don't know what else to call it. Then he kept texting me at work, at home, and calling my house. I did text back and answer the phone. But now I am going no contact because I realize it is nothing good for me having to do with him. It is not necessary for me to talk to him it just gives him the power over me and he feels good while I feel bad. He does not care, love, nurture, or think of me at all. I have no reciprocation of loving actions or intentions at all. Its time I put down the fairytale hopes of having something that just isn't there. So DAy 1.... Hope I do good!