I don't know why, or where it's coming from, but I keep having random bursts of unstoppable, hysterical sounding crying. I'm not the kind of person to cry at work, but today was hard. I work with a very small group of people and one of the two girls I work with left for a new job today. I was competing with her for asst mgr and suppose beat her and felt competitive and more deserving, but I've gotten to know her over the past year pretty well and hate change. I couldn't stop sobbing at the thought of working with someone new, even if it meant not getting a promotion. It's weird, it's what I wanted all a long but I didn't want her to leave today. It's been a hard year and she's always listened to me rant or complain and only offered kindness and advice. Then, today a customer yelled and cussed in my face over something I had no control over and was trying to accommodate her... I didn't know what my friend was doing, still dont. I'm supposed to go to dinner to talk about becoming asst mgr with my manager next week and my self esteem is at an all time low. Idk if I don't believe it will happen, as i'm constantly getting let down, or if I don't think i'm capable or deserving.
Any words of advice? Oh and I cut my toxic best friend of 6 years out of my life last week. : ( feeling low. My bf and I went on vacation and I saw he was texting these two girls and I lost it. he says nothings going on and I'm just a crazy bitch, but I just don't trust him. But I don't want to be agone