Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
Well I am so upset with myself after almost making all day without contacting him even though I tried to keep turning my phone off when he would call. Not sure if it was nerves or being sick or the misplaced guilt I can't seem to shake, but I ended up texting him yesterday evening. Just texted letting him know that I was sick with a migraine and had not been up to talking . Even tried to be polite and told him I hoped he had a good weekend.
Of course he did not reply or call.
Not sure if he is now punishing me with silence for ignoring him or he had his antenna out this weekend and snatched one of his other victims. But now I feel foolish for even texting him back. I feel like the loser in his game once again.
I feel so low. I feel like somehow he stomped me, hard to explain.
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Of course he did not reply or call.
Not sure if he is now punishing me with silence for ignoring him or he had his antenna out this weekend and snatched one of his other victims. But now I feel foolish for even texting him back. I feel like the loser in his game once again.
I feel so low. I feel like somehow he stomped me, hard to explain.
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He wanted to see if you would bite, especially when you stopped returning his calls. This is why he kept calling and stopped when you texted him. You responded, he knew you were still on the hook (whether or not you actually are is irrelevant... Any response to a narc is proof that they can still have you, at least in their mind). His damaged ego was again inflated, and he was off to fish in other waters to ensure later supply should he need it.
It is a lot like planning for a long road trip when you know there might be miles and miles without a gas station. Even if your tank is 3/4 full, you stop and fill up. Maybe you even fill up a couple of back up tanks just in case.
Ugh! I am sorry you are going through this Joanie!!!
We will always lose, when
we play their game.
We win when we collect our marbles
and leave their playing field.
Shift your focus from
him
to YOU.
THAT's when you win.
Practice SELF-CARE.
Love your life.
Love Yourself.
You are a flower
on the stem of
the universe.
TAKE GOOD CARE.
I did too... Many times.
I just tried again and again.
It one thing to mentally KNOW what they are doing... It is another to FEEL okay not responding.
Take good care of yourself today, do something extra... Take a bath, go for a walk, ride your horse. Whatever makes you feel good!
You will get there!
I was on facebook and was just posting my feelings and my status update was " Good chance if I cut you out of my life it was You who handed me the scissors." Oddly enough, I expected most of my friends to get that and like it as I am a very compassionate, loyal, honest and true partner and friend. What I did not expect was one of the exes and my mutual friends to like it?
I am not sure if it means he is being supportive of me and realizes his friend deserves that statement or?
I wish I didn't overthink everything and I wish I knew who could be trusted and who could not.
I do know the ex in talking to me at work had mentioned he had wanted to shop as he had started putting on weight again and his clothes were not fitting and he needed new ones so perhaps as Freedom said, his ego was damaged from that and he was fishing for attention?
I just know I have never purposely hurt him and I supported even through supposed ADD, OCD, Tourettes, and his addiction..I have looked past so many things and lies and even when I could not be his lover I tried to be his friend.
Now I am honestly ANGRY and even though I know that is not a bad place to stay, it is a good place for now, I am hating this person and hate will hopefully keep me away from him.
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I just need to remember that when he tries to contact me again. I have been on this rollercoaster for far too long. Almost 3 years now and it is starting to take a toll on my health.
Wishing you peace and strength.
Please don't beat yourself as if you think about it, it really serves no purpose.
Just start over on the no contact.
I hope you feel more at peace soon.
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You are awesome....it is hard to do....