Hello there. I'm in an emotionally abusive relationship and feel so frustrated. Everything is always my fault. I'm told I'm a liar, cheater etc. I know that I'm a great person, I'd do anything for anyone especially the man I love. He has no reason not to believe in me but once again...its always my fault. In the beginning, like it always goes I guess, everything was amazing. I never felt better with anyone in my life. We are talking about marriage, children, all the things that I've ever wanted. We've had a long distance relationship for 3 years and I'm planning on moving there in Feb. Things are great for a bit and then he goes crazy on me. My gut is telling me not to move there but my heart is telling me to go. That things will be better once we are together. That he won't distrust me once we live together. But I'm also scared he will get worse. I think I know I should end this before it gets worse but I almost would rather be with him than be alone again. I hate myself for saying that because I know I'm wrong to want to be with someone who abuses me but I'm so low in self esteem right now I'm more afraid to be alone. To be the "single" girl again. All I've ever wanted is to be married and have children and being 32 I feel like I'm running out of time. I wish I could just get my strength back. I used to be so independent. I'm so scared to be alone. :-(
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