Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
My friend/boss was brutally murdered 30 years ago and her body was left under leaves on a riding trail.
Her face was smashed so hard it was called over kill. Her face was smashed like a melon and nothing was left but the pulp.
God.
God.
God.
It was my fault. I told her husband accidentally that she was not where she was supposed to be.
It was my fault.
and the day she was murdered was the day i conceived my baby.
probably at the exact time she took her lasst breath, i conceived.
i can't move past this. I'm stuck. 30 years ago, but still stuck.
she was the one who fixed me up with my daughters father, who i now call my 5 minute husband, because it feels like it lasted for 5 minutes.
one breath leaves the planet, one breath enters my womb. at the same time.
she was pulverized.
tears, tears, tears, tears.
I'm soo sorry that this triggered you
and I'm also sooooo sorry that your
grief is encased in guilt. What happened
was NOT your fault. It was totally the
fault of the murderer who took her life!!!!!!!!
Have you gotten counseling for this?
Please, please get therapy for this.
she mattered.
her brain turned to matter in the leaves.
she didn't matter enough though, because know one ever bothered to solve her mystery.
I know what happened.
her husband paid two men to beat her to death with a bat.
i bet he was there too, watching.
i never did receive formal counseling.
it's too late.
I feel your sadness in what happened, but you do not need to blame yourself for what happened. maybe the moment that you gave birth, her spirit came into your child. Maybe you gave her a place to go. Blaming yourself will not erase what happened. Honor your friend by not letting this happen in your life ever again.
Again, I am so sorry for your tradegy. And yes, I see that this type of torment should and does need therapy from a professional.
Much love and hugs to you.
It is NOT too late.
Whatever tears you up
is what a counselor
wants to address.
Bring it up NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and yes, her spirit is inside of my daughter. i've always known that.
my daughter has struggled with a drug addiction/eating disorder for one half of her 30 years. 15 years.
she is clean from drugs, but struggling with her ED. (to put it mildly)
my friend/boss was my boss at a figure salon.
it's just all too late for any of us to heal.
my daughter does have sharon's spirit inside of her, but she doesn't know this. It's her demon.
Why is it that you feel it's too late for you
or too late to heal?