Last night was yet a fearful night. When he becomes angry regardless of who or what got him there its me that takes in all the anger. Last night his mother got him started and who eles did he finsih on me and always me. He tells me that Im the cancer of the family and I need to die already and nothing would change if that were to happen . His brother was there and I was so ashamed at how he was acting toward me I just wanted to grab my two kids and run but instead I just sat there and took it. Of course he was drinking (as he sees it Im the reason for that) he went out and came home about mid night and woke me up along with the kids so he could yell at me for an hour . Calling me all sort of names and telling me how worthless I am and how he wanted to knock me out but was not worth him going to jail over. Im at the breaking point and am so lost I dont know what to do at this point. Im scared to leave I did it once but he stalked me . Not only that Im scared of what may happen to me .