I missed him for about a year after no contact. It's the worst at the beginning but it really does get better with time. I used to remember all the horrible manipulative things too. In fact there were a few months where suddenly I realised so many of the things he said had been lies. I couldn't even sleep because the thoughts and realisations of so much of everything kept going round my head. It was suddenly so obvious it was lies, but I hadn't realised when I was with him and had completely believed everything he said. I felt like such an idiot. That got better with time too. I think your brain needs to process through everything that happened.

I'm with lilpuddy on everything. The early months were horrible, and slowly more memories of my ex's actions that hurt me creeped in. But the end of next month I'm coming up on one year living apart from my ex, and lately I've been feeling pretty decent. The memories rarely sting anything like they used to.

I almost feel guilty on occasion because I used to love and miss him so incredibly much, so a very small part of me still wants to feel those things again like I did while he was my world, but I really just don't anymore.