Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
Hi everyone I am new here!
Lately I have being conscious that I probably suffered from some abuse when I was a child. I am a person who acts in a scared way, I feel afraid of talking to people and when I do it happens very often that they can't listen to me. I am very slow, I take more time than other people to react to events because I am always doubting myself. I have done this my entire life. The only thing that made me happy one day was to study to have good marks and think "oh, I am doing the right thing, it's what my parents told me to do". I finished university some months ago. Since then I am struggling with myself with depression. All I wanna do is isolate myself.Today me and my mom had a fight because she thinks I have no reason to be like that because I have money, I could have a good job in my area, that actually I can have everything I want to. She keeps saying nobody understands (I live in a small city) why I am like this. I feel so bad because I have felt insecure, ridiculous and always had self steem issues. It's so hard to fight myself and I can't stop blaming her inside me. May sound ridiculous but I started to observe the way she treats the dog we have. I think she did it to me.
Sorry about saying too much guys. I think you understand.
Lately I have being conscious that I probably suffered from some abuse when I was a child. I am a person who acts in a scared way, I feel afraid of talking to people and when I do it happens very often that they can't listen to me. I am very slow, I take more time than other people to react to events because I am always doubting myself. I have done this my entire life. The only thing that made me happy one day was to study to have good marks and think "oh, I am doing the right thing, it's what my parents told me to do". I finished university some months ago. Since then I am struggling with myself with depression. All I wanna do is isolate myself.Today me and my mom had a fight because she thinks I have no reason to be like that because I have money, I could have a good job in my area, that actually I can have everything I want to. She keeps saying nobody understands (I live in a small city) why I am like this. I feel so bad because I have felt insecure, ridiculous and always had self steem issues. It's so hard to fight myself and I can't stop blaming her inside me. May sound ridiculous but I started to observe the way she treats the dog we have. I think she did it to me.
Sorry about saying too much guys. I think you understand.
Your light is inside you!
You may be slow (I happen to be slow, myself!) but you are in no way ridiculous.
Sometimes our parents do things when we're growing up, that hurt us at that moment, and then sometimes also long into our adult lives. Most of them do it because they were themselves hurt, when THEY were children.
Once we're grown up, it's time for us to begin to repair whatever the damages were. We can do it now. It's not going to be easy but we can do it.
The first step is reaching out and getting some support. You've reached out here, and that's good. It would also be good if you could find a counselor or therapist who understands abuse and trauma. If you can't find a counselor ---- or even if you can --- sometimes a support group can help, also.
When people who have been hurt themselves become parents and raise children with fair or poor parenting skills, the cycle continues. But when we become adults, we can step in and break the cycle. We may not be able to change EVERYTHING, but we can begin to live lives in which we feel better about ourselves and being with others, on any given day. Then, if we become parents someday, we'll have different skills and tools for raising children who won't feel insecure and ridiculous.
Please keep reaching out. That's the first way we can begin to take care of ourselves.