My father did some horrible things (mostly emotional sadism and neglect). I finally told him I knew what he had done about a year ago when I was hospitalized for an eating disorder. We've been to family therapy during inpatient and day treatment. The thing is, I'm still angry. I love him, but part of me is always afraid. I feel like whenever I try to talk to him about it he gets defensive and shuts down. "It was your mom's fault. I was trying to make things easier on you" I'm away at college now; I'm worried about my mom. We're staying in pretty close contact, so I'll know if something is up. I don't know how to resolve this anger and fear. I suppose I can admit they are reasonable feelings, but, like I said, I am away now and things have been better since inpatient. Not perfect, but better.
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