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Sometimes I feel invisible. My family was very supportive after everything happened.... but my parents have been on vacation, and the summer is always so busy for everyone, including me. I have been keeping super busy up until this week. i don't have a lot of money right now so I had to stay home mostly this week, and then I had the bat again Thursday. I am strong, I know I am.. but I am so jumpy right now.
Just when I got him out of my life, and when I was confident he wasn't coming around anymore, a bat was in my apartment when i got home. Then the building promised they were taking care of it, and then Thursday happened and it flew in while I was here! I am trying to be strong most of the time, but today feels horrible. I feel so alone. I talked to my friend at one point during the day... and then I texted my sister to see what she was up to. that was hours ago... I had been at my parents picking up some food for them, and I just got home and went on Facebook. Turns out my sister and my brother and a bunch of our friends all hung out tonight... and she didn't answer my text earlier.
Now I know it isn't my sisters job to make me happy, but we usually do stuff together and she always answers... and they have this big get together which I know isn't the first time and I am not invited. I'm crushed. My family is very close, and us spending time together is not a new thing.
My sister is in therapy as well. she doesn't think she is beautiful and yet she is gorgeous. I am overweight so when she says she isn't pretty I feel like an ugly pig. Every guy I've ever known loves my sister too. She has better relationships with our family and a lot of our friends because she texts and calls them all the time. I have stuff going on or figure they are busy so I don't usually text unless I think of something funny or to make plans. I feel so alone though. I live alone, I feel alone.. and I always have to be the strong one.
Now I'm crying... I'm at a low point here. I'm still terrified that a bat will start flying around at any second, I'm jumpy as hell, I feel alone and unsafe and invisible. I want to feel safe! I am so tired of being afraid!
Just when I got him out of my life, and when I was confident he wasn't coming around anymore, a bat was in my apartment when i got home. Then the building promised they were taking care of it, and then Thursday happened and it flew in while I was here! I am trying to be strong most of the time, but today feels horrible. I feel so alone. I talked to my friend at one point during the day... and then I texted my sister to see what she was up to. that was hours ago... I had been at my parents picking up some food for them, and I just got home and went on Facebook. Turns out my sister and my brother and a bunch of our friends all hung out tonight... and she didn't answer my text earlier.
Now I know it isn't my sisters job to make me happy, but we usually do stuff together and she always answers... and they have this big get together which I know isn't the first time and I am not invited. I'm crushed. My family is very close, and us spending time together is not a new thing.
My sister is in therapy as well. she doesn't think she is beautiful and yet she is gorgeous. I am overweight so when she says she isn't pretty I feel like an ugly pig. Every guy I've ever known loves my sister too. She has better relationships with our family and a lot of our friends because she texts and calls them all the time. I have stuff going on or figure they are busy so I don't usually text unless I think of something funny or to make plans. I feel so alone though. I live alone, I feel alone.. and I always have to be the strong one.
Now I'm crying... I'm at a low point here. I'm still terrified that a bat will start flying around at any second, I'm jumpy as hell, I feel alone and unsafe and invisible. I want to feel safe! I am so tired of being afraid!
I am quite alone also, my husb of 40 years is leaving me soon to be with another woman...I have no friends, no support...I do have a dog and 2 cats that I am madly in love with, and worry that I won't be able to take care of them.....The animals are my family.....
Being alone is no fun...As bad as it is, you got to get yourself out there, and join something.....I go to a friendship club, we talk, play bingo, and eat lunch....Not great, but something...
Lately, all I wanted to do was die...
I ask myself how could he? This is the lowest I have been.
As for the bat in your home, it will go away, it is just a tempory thing,
keep your windows closed from now on.....
My friend lives in an adult home and they have mice...and all the time, so think of one bat, and a million mice...you are lucklier than her.
I am sorry you are alone...You got to give your sister time to get well, because she is in therapy....Sometimes, you have to be the caller, and never mind, if she doesn't call. You call.
Be strong.
love, meyers
It's hard being alone some times. For me it was way worse when I first left. I've been on my own for 7 yrs and that feeling happens less and less.
When I felt alone or fearful, I would go sit on my porch or go to the park & just "be" in nature. I discovered this when my therapist suggested I go sit in nature and meditate on "What is my truth?" My truth is that I am connected to everything. It was the most peaceful, joyful feeling I had ever felt up to that point. There's a lot of research being done on reconnectig w/nature and it's all very positive & uplifting.
Other things that helped me were my sweet kitty cat, journaling, Reiki (energy work), EFT, meditation, guided imagery, reading, watching funny movies or sitcoms (laughter is very healing) & making jewelry which is a very meditative & creative process.
Therapy can help too. EFT really helps with fear and anxiety. It's fairly easy to learn. Lots of EFT videos on youtube & you might check out www.eftuniverse.com for free videos there too.
When I left, I didn't have any local friends & my family lives a long way away. It took a while, but I started meeting people because I joined groups & took classes. I now have several good friends & an active social life.
This link is to a great video called How to be Alone.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7X7sZzSXYs
Give yourself the gift of time to heal & be gentle w/yourself.