Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
My partner just hit me for the LAST fucking time I swear
I told her its over I hate her and don't want to be with her anymore I guess some people will think because where both women its not domestic violence
Something has just snaped inside me she can't physically hurt me anymore and emotionally I'm about as low as I can be
But I feel really guiltly and she said if I leave she will kill herself because she has nothing else to live for I know this could be another way of controlling me but I don't want to take the chance one minute she is crying the next minute she is in my face screaming at me again she is always the same always fucking sorry then hates me again she says she can't control it but she manages to control it around other people
Why am I always the one that feels guilty I know I have done nothing wrong or have I I don't know my head is screwed up don't want this shit anymore but how am I supposed to leave I was this fucking close to walking out the door but now I can't do it I'm stuck here I feel trapped and alone I hate her I hste my life
I told her its over I hate her and don't want to be with her anymore I guess some people will think because where both women its not domestic violence
Something has just snaped inside me she can't physically hurt me anymore and emotionally I'm about as low as I can be
But I feel really guiltly and she said if I leave she will kill herself because she has nothing else to live for I know this could be another way of controlling me but I don't want to take the chance one minute she is crying the next minute she is in my face screaming at me again she is always the same always fucking sorry then hates me again she says she can't control it but she manages to control it around other people
Why am I always the one that feels guilty I know I have done nothing wrong or have I I don't know my head is screwed up don't want this shit anymore but how am I supposed to leave I was this fucking close to walking out the door but now I can't do it I'm stuck here I feel trapped and alone I hate her I hste my life
they ALL say that.
fine, if you want to kill yourself, go do it.
they never do.
you are right when you notice that she only hits you. she's not out there attacking random people, which means that she IS able to control it.
let this last hit be THE LAST HIT.
don't know your situation, if there are children involved, if you live together, but you have to get out!
call your local women's shelter if you need to. also, in most cities, there is a lesbian/gay alliance, and I know that they have help, or connections regarding same sex abuse.
abuse is everywhere. it's not just the straight couples.
and everyone deserves help.
good luck, and post and read here as much as possible.
If you live in the U.S. or other develped
country there's a women's center or
women's aid centre near you.
Plase go there and access their resources.
Please don't allow the abuse to continue.
You're NOT nobobdy!
You're a flower on the stem of the universe!!!!!!!!!!
Please get to the center and
start clearing the toxins from
your life. You're entitled to
live free of abuse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hugs and healing wishes.
She says she will kill herself if I leave but I can only see one way out right now if I do what she is threatening to do
I think I will look online if i can find a women's aid in my area but I can't go I can call them when she is out I can't go anywhere but she can go where ever she wants I know I am weak and pathetic I just wish I could get away from her and not care what she does or do sent do but I feel so guilty about leaving
I fell for it as well, i was scared but also angry. I felt his life was in my hands it was awful. You know he has never mentioned it since said i had made him see the light(i obviously during the falling for it, talked him out of it), my guess is that it was a load of rubbish.
Also my Dad actually commited suicide when i was 16 so it also hurt that he would say this to me.
Its a tactic, think of them as actors, and very good ones at that.
My ex once pretended to have a stroke once wjen i was pregnant with our daughter to get out of putting a deposite down on a house for us to live because he did not want to committ....sounds far fetched and i was really shocked at what he was doing as i never in a million years would have thought he would scoop so low, but remember, abusers will say anything to manipulate you and control every situation to their advantage.
Put it this way, if the girl was so hung up on you that she could not be with you, wouldnt killing herslf be taking herself away from you anyway???
I went into the kitchen when my ex said that to me and handed him a knife and told him to do it and kill himself,(PLEASE NO ONE ELSE TRY THIS IT WAS A RISKY THING TO DO) needless to say he went a bit blank and looked a bit pale and said he didnt want to do it like that and he had planned out in his head how blarr blarr blarrrrrr!
Your ex sounds so much like my partner she's always saying she would be better off dead and everyone would be better of without her she says if i leave she will have no one and I'm all she cares about she can't carry on living without me so like you did I feel like her life is in my hands and I couldn't live with myself if i left and she did do something to herself on impulse or accidently went to far I do also think she is trying to control me its so hard I can't leave but I don't want to be with her either