I have never felt like a person in the eyes of any doctor... I am a number... a file... a bunch of notes & factoids & dates all clumped together. They have their perceptions & views of me, which have always meant more to them than the words coming out of my mouth or the pleading in my eyes for them to hear me finally hear me ... but, all they see is another cow in their daily cattle drive. I have been trusting, even though I have never felt listened too or treated right. My mother was always compliant, calm & polite. I always took my que from her. But, I cannot blindly trust them anymore. It has all added up over the years & now it has grown into this "in-your-face" bitch monster determined to protect me from any further harm at the hands of those "trained professionals" called doctors & the minions who carry out their orders.
Among others I suffer from these medical related phobias that feel damn near crippling sometimes...
Tomophobia - the fear of surgical procedures
Latrophobia - the fear of doctors
Agliophobia - the fear of pain
Nosocomephobia - the fear of hospitals
Sooo.... are you still here?
I am terrified of spiders. Big ones, little ones, any! I have panic attacks when I see them. I went to a reptile show once and there was a kind man that tried to help me. He put a large red kneed tarantula in my hand, a little at a time talking to me all the while. I thought I was going to die. I was sweating, tears ran down my face, and I had all I could do not to pass out. I made myself hold...