I dont know if others have experienced this, I am sure there are some.I cried so much when my baby first left me, and the circumstances concerning his death were very tramatic, hours of trying to bring him back even though he was gone, I couldnt give him up or let go, I find now I cant cry and god I still feel so empty, I did get another pup for my Keegan, and I love him very much, I just dont understand what I am or am not feeling. Someone told me when if it is tramatic , sometimes you block out your feelings to help you cope, believe me I do feel an enormous amount of guilt and at first I would just cry and look out back and say , you caused this, and am I blocking it out so I dont have to deal with the guilt, It was the most horrible thing I have ever been thru, I feel hardened , empty, cold inside, I do okay with life and do enjoy my dogs , I laugh but when I look out back I just stare and feel nothing, what wrong with me ? I miss my Giz so much , it seems nothing brings me true happiness, am I blocking out the events of that day to help me cope? Believe me I could go insane if I did think about it, when I do I try to get as far away from that day as possible
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