Tonite is one week that was the beginning of the end for me with my Giz's passing on sat morning.I'm sitting here and as its getting later I'm afraid I'm going to just start reliving all the flashbacks of the should have could haves on the friday night and the horrific situation on saturday morning.I tried for hours crying, shaking him breathing for my baby trying so hard to wake him up even though he had been gone for hours.I have never been thru anything like this before.I've had pets that were stricken ill and were suffering and I did what was right for them and did not think of myself but helped them to leave this life gently and not in pain. I made such terrific progress today with the help of a very special person here ..that hurdle did not involve the grief though and right now its rough I'm just so damn afraid to lose it and I have another yorkie here that I am trying to help get thru his big brother being gone..I cant fall apart in front of him ..he gets so afraid if he sees me cry
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