Personality Disorders Support Group
Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Personality disorders are seen by the American Psychiatric Association as an enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectations of the culture of the individual who exhibits it.
Well tomorrow marks another year older. My birthday is tomorrow. UGH I will be the ripe old age of 62. UGH Well age discrimination at work is alive and well. Everyone does not give me a chance to learn anything new. I guess when you struggle with a mental illness when others are making their way in the world, it does tragedy to any kind of career and retirement savings. So not to be a downer this is reality guys. I know most of the therapists are telling you that once you get past this disorder, things will be better. Your non-PD peers are making their name and they are climbing the career ladder while most PD's can't get out of bed in the morning. Life struggles do not end, they just change. My PD is pretty much under control and I still now struggle with work and having no one want to give me a chance. I have tried to do everything that the younger kids do to get ahead but the HR departments only see my birthdate and wonder why I did not do this at the appropriate age. This makes them know that there must have been something really wrong back in my 20s and 30s. No excuse really works, they just do not believe them.
I never realized half the things I was doing until it gets brought to my attention. I always found it hard to sleep as a child...as far as I knew. Now...I'm finding it hard to sleep again. For whatever reason, I just can't shut my brain off. And when I think I've been sleeping...it turns out that I've been about in my sleep!!! Not exactly restful. So...I end up in bed for so long...and so tired all day. *sigh*
I've been told by my Pdoc, that he believes that I'll make a full recovery. However, we're pulling up to that time of year that always makes me worst then any other time of year!!! I've started making fall backs again. Cutting, restricting...my insomnia's picked up for the worst again. *sigh* Things have not really gotten easier...they've just changed. Or gotten worst in some cases. :s
I hope you're able to find things that will help you find some peace within your life. Perhaps if you were to keep positive affirmations about...so that you could read them on a daily basis, may help??? I find that it's been helpful to me. Best when I'd doing alright...not so great when I'm doing horrible. :s It's a win-lose situation...but it never hurts to try. :)
I hope that things work out for you. And Happy Belated Birthday.