Personality Disorders Support Group
Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Personality disorders are seen by the American Psychiatric Association as an enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectations of the culture of the individual who exhibits it.
Suicide is when mental health issues go terminal.
It's not normal to feel this way, and immediate medical attention is necessary.
I was on both sides of the rainbow. I wish you well.