Personality Disorders Support Group

Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Personality disorders are seen by the American Psychiatric Association as an enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectations of the culture of the individual who exhibits it.

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So MAD

Dixe4me
Dixe4me
I have been watching hoping someone else would post that I could relate to, but no one has. What's the deal, does everyone but me have the BPD under control?! I am so sick of this! I want to be fixed like YESTERDAY!!! I'm sick of spending money on drs. and they can't give me the right meds or get me regulated. It's been almost a year now. I think I am going to go crazy before they get this crap under control!!
I am in fact getting worse. When I tell the pdoc this she just increases the medicine I'm on and I just seem to keep getting worse! For the first time ever a couple of weeks ago I could have seriously hurt someone if I had been confronted and I would have (not could have ) but WOULD have rammed into the car in front of me if my kids had not been in the car with me...I was afraid they would get hurt.

So what gives, no one else feel this way? Ever? Or am I just NUTS!
deleted_user
deleted_user
There is not much to say about it. Its a more personal thing I suppose. I know its hard. It controls how you function. You feel like shit all the time. sometimes the only thing that stops me from violent outbirsts are thinking of the ramifications. I was in a bar earlier and this dude sitting next to me was bumping me, then spilled on me. I sat there for a good 5 min looking at his lower back were his right kidney is located while toying with the knife in my pocket.
There is no controlling it, just acepting and forgeting it.
If you dwell on something it will start to rule your life.

Oh...one of the things I've always wanted to do is put a cow-catch on the front of my car so I could ram anybody who pisses me off on the road.

Take care
-Andrew
Dixe4me
Dixe4me
Yes Andy, I think I should deff. do that, the cow hitch thing, at least some kind of roll bar! to protect my van. Do they come for vans? hmmm. I'm telling ya, don't know what I'm going to do when I get in one of those moods and a police officer pulls me over! Got any ideas other than have bail money in the savings account?
deleted_user
deleted_user
Well if you don't want to use money...have a realy fast car. lol
Dixe4me
Dixe4me
Well, I have always wanted a sooped up mustang :)
deleted_user
deleted_user
I really get what your saying..while my episodes are daily, they do still flare up even after 3 years of all kinds of meds and now the dr. has upped one of my meds for like a week and then back to the same shit. I don't think it's even working anymore, but he only seems to care about prescribing the drugs and not what is making me mad. I've let a (what I thought was) friend into my life for once and when she unloaded all her drama on me, it pissed me off to the point I unloaded my crap onto my husb. Sadly, I think I'm gonna have to cut off all ties with her because the BPD won't allow me to trust anyone without something like this crap happening. I mean I have all my own problems to deal with. I don't need her shit hanging on me too! I feel so pissed off cause I want to be an encourager and a listener, but I can't because of the F'in BPD!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
No you're not going insain or crazy, I've felt like that many times as well until I spoke with my therapist and then got her to speak with my doctor ...once they were on the same page I started getting better with a change in meds. Ask for a mecical review with a psychitrist and maybe then they can get your meds under control.