Personality Disorders Support Group
Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Personality disorders are seen by the American Psychiatric Association as an enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectations of the culture of the individual who exhibits it.
Hello,
I am not sure I have this disorder but I am reaching out to you to learn if what I am experiencing could be akin to a form of depersonalization.
I went to my SSDI hearing and 5 min before it was time to go before the judge my lawyer comes out and announces that the judge is not going to consider my Fibromyalgia (the main thing my lawyer has built my case on because symptoms that have been debilitating me since 2007 have been deemed by my doctors associated to Fibromyalgia).
So my lawyer tells me he going to throw that all out. However since I have other issues along with the Fibro, he is will to consider those and possibly grant back payment of my SSDI from 2011.
Well from this point on everything is scatchy. I only remember sitting in the hearing room before the judge, not being able to understand what he was saying. It sounded like mumbling. I don't remember my lawyer saying in my defense, except at one point I remember everyone looking at me for an answer to something. I can't even remember if I said anything in reply. It has all been very weird since that day. I can't seem to fully comprehend anything. Like sensory experience has been...broken...shrunken...and I simply can not experience anything beyond the limit of that...shutdown.
I went to a small gathering of friends last night. Well...it got a little bigger than expected and I just simply could not understand what some people where saying to me. Their words sounded garbbled. I had to keep asking them to repeat themselves.
What is happening to me? My hearing was over a week ago, but I have not returned to normal (well, I mean what has become my normal since I've been ill). This feeling of being not fully present is with me constantly, and intensifies when activities around me increase.
Can anyone identify with what I am experiencing and can you identify what this is?
Thanks
I am not sure I have this disorder but I am reaching out to you to learn if what I am experiencing could be akin to a form of depersonalization.
I went to my SSDI hearing and 5 min before it was time to go before the judge my lawyer comes out and announces that the judge is not going to consider my Fibromyalgia (the main thing my lawyer has built my case on because symptoms that have been debilitating me since 2007 have been deemed by my doctors associated to Fibromyalgia).
So my lawyer tells me he going to throw that all out. However since I have other issues along with the Fibro, he is will to consider those and possibly grant back payment of my SSDI from 2011.
Well from this point on everything is scatchy. I only remember sitting in the hearing room before the judge, not being able to understand what he was saying. It sounded like mumbling. I don't remember my lawyer saying in my defense, except at one point I remember everyone looking at me for an answer to something. I can't even remember if I said anything in reply. It has all been very weird since that day. I can't seem to fully comprehend anything. Like sensory experience has been...broken...shrunken...and I simply can not experience anything beyond the limit of that...shutdown.
I went to a small gathering of friends last night. Well...it got a little bigger than expected and I just simply could not understand what some people where saying to me. Their words sounded garbbled. I had to keep asking them to repeat themselves.
What is happening to me? My hearing was over a week ago, but I have not returned to normal (well, I mean what has become my normal since I've been ill). This feeling of being not fully present is with me constantly, and intensifies when activities around me increase.
Can anyone identify with what I am experiencing and can you identify what this is?
Thanks
Its a tough thing to get and the judges aren't always amenable. Maybe you're more upset about things in general than you can process, and feeling numb from your emotional overload is also numbing you from reality?
Again, not sure! See someone and take care!
When I am in that mode, I feel like a Star Trek ship where the shields are down and I am in threat of being attacked -- so I try to find a safe place (inside my mind) and journal or get some crayons and a cheap book of blank pages and let your into ones draw out their feelings. You will find out a lot of what is happening internally by just letting your hand go free. -- Remember no internal dialog, no adult parts of your personality are allowed to talk to your inner children and nothing they draw is "wrong" - you are just listening to what they want to say.
I went to see a therapist yesterday because things still feel so strange to me. He told me I am experiencing something called Cognitive Confusion. He told me to limit as much exposure to outside stimulation as possible. So I am to sort of isolate myself for the time being from even conversations that might upset or even otherwise excite me. No movies, even seeing loved ones would not be a good idea because I am in overdrive and need to calm down to a level where I can again broaden my ability to process what is going on around me more normally.
Any thoughts?
I havent really heard of cognitive confusion so I cant say anything in any direction with that. Though I would probably still look up grounding techniques they can help if you begin to get very upset.