Personality Disorders Support Group
Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Personality disorders are seen by the American Psychiatric Association as an enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectations of the culture of the individual who exhibits it.
Lately I have felt like I am on a destruction course. Especially when it comes to relationships. My therapist told me that is because of the BPD. I feel like I don't let myself live in the moment and be happy. I know what I want to do with my life, I'm going back to school, I have a wonderful best friend who I share everything with, I have a guy who treats me like I am the world, but I want to wreck it so bad. I want to mess up everything and run away. I want to hurt myself emotionally and physically. I want to push everyone away, but yet I need them so desperately. I am dependent on not being alone.
I don't know what to do with myself. I feel miserable no matter how much things are working out.I feel like I can't show affection anymore even. I feel like not showing affection is part of the sabotage to the good relationships I have with people.
I know the answer is probably taking a step back away from people, but that is so hard. I know I should take some "me time" and just relax. I just can't bring myself to.
I don't know what kind of answers I'm looking for. I think I just need to vent. Thank you for listening.
I don't know what to do with myself. I feel miserable no matter how much things are working out.I feel like I can't show affection anymore even. I feel like not showing affection is part of the sabotage to the good relationships I have with people.
I know the answer is probably taking a step back away from people, but that is so hard. I know I should take some "me time" and just relax. I just can't bring myself to.
I don't know what kind of answers I'm looking for. I think I just need to vent. Thank you for listening.
You know what you are doing and why.
Just be gentle with yourself...your on a personality board so it is something that is part of you that you will work thru the best you can.
Those who truly love you will not let you push them away and you will get thru your battles with their support.