Personality Disorders Support Group
Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Personality disorders are seen by the American Psychiatric Association as an enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectations of the culture of the individual who exhibits it.
I just updated my profile to reflect my real age. My birthday was horrible. All alone with no one to celebrate it with. I think if I look back to last year it was the same post. UGH Well I stopped celebrating after 31 years of doing it alone. UGH UGH Thanks great personality disorder. I have been in DBT to update everyone and quess what I still celebrated my birthday alone. Thanks DBT and do not tell me to keep trying. UGH After 62 years, I have given up. I will just survive. Hope everyone has great holidays, this year I am getting drunk starting with Halloween. This is my choice so leave it alone.
It looks to me like you are pretty rational and level headed and able to control your emotions through difficult times.
May I suggest something? People have a funny way of categorizing others. If you introduce yourself as "lonely lady" then you will more likely be treated as a loner. Try changing your name to something more neutral or even more positive.
Since I am getting tired of hiding this ,....I am Jewish and we Jews have a saying..."change your name and change your luck."
Again, I hesitate to give advice because I don't have the official bpd diagnosis but I self sabotage a lot for whatever reason and flip when people don't come through for me so I get not having close friends are really any at all. i really do. I really do think that you have outgrown your name. consider changing it and I think you might see some things change.