Personality Disorders Support Group
Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Personality disorders are seen by the American Psychiatric Association as an enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectations of the culture of the individual who exhibits it.
I love you but I treat you like you don't matter at all half the time. Right. If I tried to talk to him about the contradicton, I'd get hung up on or ignored for days or weeks. I'm finally getting it through my head, this guy isn't worth my time at all. He doesn't and never will really love me. He can't, or wont. And I don't need that shit. I'm trying to stay sober and recover form alcoholism and 20 years of depression.
Plus need to work on my recent diagnosis of BPD, which explained alot to me as to why I was the way I was in relationships. Selflove is what I need to work on. Telling myself I am worthy of love and I didn't deserve to be abused and it's not my fault if he wont love me.
but we were still talking and now he is abusing his new girlfriend and telling me about it like it makes him cool. he always calls her a fat cow and tells her how stupid she is and how he hates her hair and he says she looks like a clown. it's awful. i feel so bad for her.
you need to make sure that you are going to be safe first and strong enough to handle things such as the emotions that go along with it.