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BPD alongside Anorexia..

shannonwx
shannonwx

Hello,



I have bpd and anorexia which both seem to trigger each other, at first the AN was numbing them extreme bpd mood swings but they've come back due to system slow down from high restriction.


I am actively getting more and more unhealthy, both physically and mentally. I have a psychiatrist who i see every 6 weeks and she keeps a close eye on my health (although that had decreased a lot since last seeing her). And I've spoken to a dietitian but I am unable to work with her without therapy due to trauma related symptoms relating to the ED.


I am waiting to get into therapy but there's only one person in the local hospital I can see for both conditions, and I've been waiting 2 months now and have another 2 to wait, I've tried to access further support but have been told I'm too complex so that can't happen. 

im really struggling to cope alone to be honest, I've been open and honest with work but I still need to improve. I can't get any further support, does anyone have any advice for dealing with two conditions at once which feed off each other? And what to do whilst waiting for support, as I'm getting progressively worse...


CaffeineJunky
CaffeineJunky
Hi shannonwx, I am so sorry you are suffering from these disorders, I know how painful and just hopeless that situation feels. The most messed up part of bpd in my opinion is how quickly you can deteriorate. I have gone from doing amazing (being happy and social, eating right, exercising, taking care of my body) to being enveloped by anorexia and SH practically overnight bc of one stupid BPD episode. It is nice to see other people relate to this and understand how they work hand in hand- one gets worse, then the other feeds off of it and soon enough you are spiraling and don't know what to do to save yourself, or if you really want to. I feel like most people get angry when they see you doing so good, then all of a sudden you're struggling and reaching out for help, bc they don't understand how vicious and painful that cycle is. Right now, I am kinda coming out of an episode and working on improving my anorexia, and honestly I am just as lost as you on trying to improve it. My therapist wasn't much help with it, and my psych always ignored the issue of my ED.

I think one thing that has kind of been helping me is finding something I enjoy doing with my body, then doing it more often so I care more about how I treat it. For example, I really like working out, so I have been trying to do that more to convince myself that I need to feed my body to do this activity I enjoy so much. This can work with other activities like walking, hiking, yoga, running, biking, dancing, etc. I don't know if this helps at all, but I hope for the best for you and I want to let you know you aren't alone and this isn't your fault. You are doing everything you can to seek out help and support. Hopefully you have people in your life who you can talk to about this and who will support you through your recovery.