Personality Disorders Support Group

Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Personality disorders are seen by the American Psychiatric Association as an enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectations of the culture of the individual who exhibits it.

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I dont know what to do.

lilduckie
lilduckie
I suffer from Boarderline Personality Disorder. I am engaged to be married this July and I can feel my BPD getting out of control. It scares my fiance'. I keep it held in. It is like getting mad, angry, anxious, sad back to back to back and it switches really fast. When I first started dating my fiance' over 4 yrs ago I had a episode where I pushed her agesnt a wall and I hurt her. I ended up squising her wristes really hard and when she told me hurt I didnt really stop and then when I was more calm I told her I am sorry. I would NEVER EVER want to hurt her. So since then I keep it held in because I dont want to scare her or hurt her ever again. But now it is getting harder to hold inside me. I dont know what to do...any advice or ideas????
deleted_user
deleted_user
You will have to start seeing a therapist, and you should also talk to your doctor who will either give you a mood stabilizer or refer you to a psychiatrist who can give advice on the best drugs to take.

Thank you for sharing this story and keep talking about what's going on in your life. I've found that by sharing my own pain here about BPD that it's made me feel a lot better.
deleted_user
deleted_user
How about getting a therapist or anger management. You shouldn't have to hold things in and if you get help you won't have to.
lilduckie
lilduckie
Thank you you guys. I have talked to my counselor but she just found out she has to move to Cali due to a family situation which sucks cuz I really like working with her. She will be helping me look for a new counselor. I did talk to my fiance' and she is will to help anyway she can. You guys rock. I still feel all crazy inside me right now. I am trying to not hold everything in. So we will see. Thanks again.