Hi and welcome,
I can't recall the order of the stages of grief/loss, but fear is one of them just like anger and denial. I spent a few years there before I moved on. Now don't get defensive, I'm not saying I did anything wondrous or courageous, nor am I any different or better than you. What happened is nothing. My PD didn't progress very fast. Thankfully, with medication (and some will disagree on this and that's okay), I'm actually doing better after five years than I was when I was first diagnosed. It took about four years for the fear to lesson its grip on me, but after years of being focused on what I couldn't do, couldn't do as easily, or might not be able to do in the future, I frankly got tired of waiting for the other shoe to drop and decided to do what I could do as well as I could and forget about it. Ha-ha, maybe that means I've just moved into denial! Just kidding. I'm taking care of myself the best I can and enjoying the now. Who knows what the future holds.
If you'd like to talk more, just let me know. I check in at least once a week as long as there is activity on the group.
L

Dear L , Yes I wrote you a respond back, but I was shaking so much that i accidentally deleted it. Last week my Neuro put me on BusBar, this is for panic attacks and depression. Every morning I would get panic attacks to the point of almost throwing up ( Don't mean to be gross. ) My Neuro says it takes about 4-6 weeks for your body to see results. So right now I am a little better, so far It's not bad. My wife is in denial big time of my PD. After 31 yrs of marriage I guess I expected a little more from her. I feel alone a lot. All my kids are grown and we have 2 granddaughters. To answer your question, yes for about 5 years I was off of DailyStrength, now I'm back, Dav777

Hi, I am new to this website. Yours and one other post made me decide to join. I am 67 Y/O and 9 years into PD. I must say, 39 Y/O is young to be diagnosed with PD. My advice, for what it is worth, is to find a very good neurologist, a movement specialist. There are websites like Michael J Fox, Davis Phinney Foundation, Parkinson's Disease Foundation. Through one of these you should be able to find a list of PD specialists in your area. I would also recommend the wesite: http://katekelsall.typepad.com/ . It has tons of information. I would like to give you something positive but there is not much. Every time I go to my neurologist they tell me that there are great things on the horizon for PD and that advances are being made continuously. But, it seems that we do not ever reach that horizon.
Like Dav777 above my wife is mostly in denial and does not want to hear much about it. I have gone through PD pretty much alone. Family and friends do not want to talk about it and I can understand that. I do not want to be a downer to them. And, it is hard for them to understand what it is like anyway. Being scared at first is natural. We go from fear to denial, to fear, to denial. In the end, we just live our lives day to day. We play the cards that are dealt us. We think of the many worse things that could have happened, and there are far worse things than PD.
Exercise really does help. It loosens the muscles. It helps with the muscle stiffness. You have to keep moving if you want to keep moving. Sometimes, when the muscle stiffness is bad you just exercise through it and they eventually loosen up and you feel better. At least that helps for me. The Davis Phinney Foundation has exercise videos for PD but any moving helps.
I hope that I did not bring you down. Just keep on, it is all that any of us can do.