I am right with the Lord again... we are true hardcore homies again and I am loving it!!!! lol

Jason (the abuser) was sentenced to 16 years in prison with no chance of early release. BUT he has two more counties to go through this court process with. We learned that the police found images on his computer but the first county got that information late in the process so they are leaving that for the next count. Part of me wants to know if he had pictures of the girls so we can heal that issue but the other part of me is terrified!!!!!! He was just transfered from prison to F. county in ohio and was arriegned and plead not guilty (which is normal). He has another lawyer and it makes me absolutely sick that there are people out there willing to help skum like him. C. County in ohio asked if I would like to say anything at the sentencing but I didn't know that was an option and didn't have anything planned so I am gonna hold off until the last hearing here in TN. I am going to thank him! Guys I am there! I am praying for God to help me forgive him and give me the strength to thank him. Now yes that sounds suuuuuuper weird but I went home for Christmas and my oldest sister and I have always had an awkward relationship because she stopped coming for visits when I was like in kindergarten or first grade and then came back around when she was 18 and I was 12 or 13 so we never really connected. Well at Christmas it really felt like she was finally my sister! Small talk was comfortable and she is amazing! Without this situation coming to light we would still have that awkward silent relationship. My husband and I are more of a team, not that we werent before but we just feel closer. I feel stronger because I am handling this all alone along with everything else alone because God decided this was the time I needed to learn to rely on him more and my husband less, so he sent my husband on deployment! These are just a few reasons I am going to thank jason!

My daughters counslor is driving me crazy! We first went to her because of the situation and i thought since this was our first deployment with my husband it would be a good idea for her to talk toher counslor about it and get some handling tools. Well deployment is all they ever talk about. my daughter has told me she wants to talk about but miss sheri just jumpsright into deployments games and stuff and she doesnt want to interup her. So I think i am going to talk to my daughter about me going in with her and talking about the situation with miss sheri. 

We had a situation the other day where my daughter, KD and her female best friend, M&M were playing her M&M's room. Well they were flipping around and playing on her futon. well KD had fallen off of it and was laying on her back with her legs in the air with her tush towards the futon. Well M&M started to fall off but caught herself by putting her hand down on the ground and grabbing the top bunk. Well KD came downstairs and told me M&M had touched her and giggled about it and she did it on purpose. Well I was there so I talked to M&M's mom about it (who is also my best friend and knows about the situation) and then we talked to KD together and then we talked to M&M. We came to the conclusion that it was just an accident but i dont know i dont ever want my daughter tofeel like i do not believe her but i think it was just a misunderstanding on her part... i have no clue howto manuver this!!!!!!!!! golly.... it just reminded me that it isnt over and she is very very very sensitive to these types of situations. I just want her to know the difference between on purpose and on accident. We did talk her through it and she understood it was an accident but as she as she said yes i believe it was an accident she said but the other person did it on purpose........... my heart broke all  over again for her...... this sucks and i just want totake it all away from her!