At this moment, I truly am in shock.  I thought I had prepared for the worst but never saw this disclosure being a part of our story.

Today, my 5 year old was VERY depressed and emotional.  I finally got him to work through his emotions on paper by drawing the feelings he felt.  Then I collected all the feelings drawn and narrowed them down to the "zones" they were mainly from: blue (sad/anxious), red (angry/enraged) & green (happy.)  I truly thought that he'd shared his couple green emotions because he finally was feeling better after working through his emotions.  Boy was I wrong.  This is what unfolded.  I recorded this conversation and he also reiterated the main things for his therapist this evening at counseling.

I had him draw a picture for each zone to show WHY he felt those ways.  The blue zone had a picture of monster boy playing "bad doctor" with "knives" on my son but him karate chopping him back.  He explained that the only tools he had to play dr. were knives and that he used them on monster girl, monsteR, and other "friends" that visited as well as himself, monster boy.  He would cut people's stomachs and say "there, you're all better!"  He also shared that monster boy would take people into the shed to play this type of dr.  He shared this happened in "real life" and was "the truth."  {This scenario was also shared by my 13 year old special needs child in a "dream" about how they had stations of sexual/physical abuse including a dr. station as well as another part where his dream had monster boy take my daughter to the shed where a bed made out of knives and wood was waiting for her to be sexually abused.}

The red zone showed monster boy being a tornadoe near my son running away.  He explained that monster boy was throwing bananas at people and then would have them slip on the peel and that monster boy was twirling around while doing this, like a tornadoe.  He said it was "mostly a dream."

Then the green zone picture had him smiling next to a strange block-style picture with an X through it.  I asked him why he was happy?  I quote, "That's because I'm not worshiping the devil like the (monster family) wanted me to.  I worship the one true God."  Needless to say I had to think fast on my toes!  WHOA!  So we talked about this.  Where had he learned about worshiping the devil? "From the (monster family)."  Was this a dream?  "No, it's the truth mommy, really the truth.  All of them tried to make me bow to the devil."  Who was this devil?  "It was this big (shows me the size of an American Girl Doll with his hands) and they hid it in monster boy's closet.  They would ALL go up there to worship it."  What color was the devil thing?  "It was a green naked body, with a black face and horns and scary red eyes.  Sometimes they would take it in their truck and drive it to a place very close to Legoland."  {UM, WHAT the what?!}  How did they make you worship it?  "I told you already, mommy, they would try to make me bow down but I did once and I said "just kidding" no I only worship the one true God."  Who from that family did this?  "ALL of them mommy...all of them."  And I asked him to name all of who and he listed every member of the monster family.  What was the statue made out of?  "I touched it one time and it felt like metal, yeah, metal."  

I'm sorta speechless and don't even know really what to do with this information but luckily, he consistently told his therapist everything that he told me verbatum.  I still can't believe this is all stuff that happened before he was 3 1/2 years old!  I know this kid is a genius but maybe that wasn't such a great thing if it was truly this bad?!  He came to therapy today and actually read through a sexual abuse book on his own, something he usually doesn't even touch.  Something has clicked in him and the flood gates seem to be opening and he wants to get more off his chest!  He's been REALLY struggling to sleep through the night, being in our bed a few times this week.  And he's reverted to tucking in his shirt tic, having multiple daytime accidents, struggling to sit on his bum again and sucking on his finger beyond normal.  I'm glad he's getting this out but I'm SO confused!

 Has ANYONE else ever dealt with such a complicated situation?!

(P.S.  The oldest Monster son listed himself in a "complicted relationship" on Facebook an monster DAD replied "keep your pants on and don't get stupid, DAD."  I smell a BIT of fear that the truth might come out if the kids don't perform properly....oh how I HOPE so!)