My daughter just got back from her doctor's appointment. Of course it is a new doctor because they have had travelers for over 2 yrs. Any ways she suggested maybe medication for her anxiety and depression. She is clingy to me, I cannot even go outside for a a second with out her running around looking for me, even if I tell her where I am going. It kills me because I do not get any me time, by night I am completely exhusted. I started school online so I could bettter myself but so far it has sucked with time. I have ADHD and cannot be interupted. My husband helps when he can in fact he has gone to the grocery store with both girls, I cannot wait to hear about it ;) I think I have made both of them like this because I over protect.(if there is such a thing) I give in with everything and I mean everything, The girls had been going to this in-home daycare since they were babies, I got a job and was fired with-in the first week, because my oldest (who disclosed) would say she was sick and I would have to go get her (daycare and school policy). I found better hours with another job only 3 nights after school and I was home right after supper and to help them get ready for bed.....Guess what I still did not work. I Cannot even imagine the pain she is feeling (my oldest), let alone my youngest who has not disclosed. youngest has been diagosed with ADHD, OCD, ODD, and PTSD and guess why she has all of these......Sexual Abuse....

My youngest has been telling about how she sees this thing not a monster but whatever it is she drew it....The wierd part is my oldest drew th same thing to a T 8 months ago and I put the picture away so far that no one could find it. My youngest says that thing thing/monster hurt her the other night by touching her down there>>pointing to her privates. It scares me to tell her DR or councelor because what if it is not her imagination.

A little backgroung on the Monster thing.....My husband at the age of 12 played with a Weggy board ( not the correct sp, but you all know what I mean) I have never touched on, but anyway he invited something into his soul, demons. He talked to me about this before we even had children. When my oldest drew the picture he turned white and imediatly got sick, he asked for me to go into the other room, he told me this is the same thing/monster he has been seeing for years......He has not seen it for about 2-3 years, but when he stopped seeing it my oldest started.....It is all to much for me...I believe in the darkside. I have had a passamauody indian elder come and remove it with a ritual. it worked I have hand and head prints 8 foot up the wall, and no one is tall like that and we were all together. I have used Cedar bows to clease my home and all of the family members, Saged my home the animals ect..... Read scripture from the bible until it felt like something was grabing me and stopping me from speaking. I am crazy so please do not think this.....I have never actually seen it but have felt it's presents around.....It makes me angry and scream at it that it is not welcome in my home and if it does not leave I will make it.....I have the Paranormal group comming soon and the priest.

I am a lite sleeper and can feel the dogs move on the floor, No one moved from their places that night. I just do not get it. I cannot sleep only because I know through the hints that my husband has thrown out that he was molested as a child, but he has never come out and diclosed any details. Every time it is brought up about what happend to the girls he gets angry. We started couples therapy and with in the 1st visit he disclosed enough hints that the councelor says that he was sexually abused, but he wants those thought to go away.

Is this normal that I do not even trust the girls dad my husband in fear of them being hurt again. I feel like I have no reason, I have asked both girls if he has ever touched them they both have said no. My oldest said no one has ever touched her that way except for "Nana" (I HATE WRITING THIS NAME) that is why she knew it was wrong. I do not see any of the same signs or any signs when they are with him.........