Hi everyone I’m new here. I’ve been debating on sharing my story but I feel like I am going crazy with all these feelings. On the way home from picking my 3yr old up from school he said (I will call him bob) bob hurt me. Once my husband arrived home I told him in private and said that’s not normal we should talk with him. We decided to put our daughter who was almost two at the time to bed early. A little while after putting her to bed I told my son since he got to stay up late and did not have to bath (because  he was having serious issues about bathing over the past 3/4wks) we still had to wash his hands and face. My son is and was completely potty trained still at this time had to wear a diaper at night because of him having accidents. Well upon putting a diaper on him I noticed a circle of poop around his anus. I said oh my looks like someone had a poop at school today my son said no my husband was sitting on the couch and said son(because I do not want to use my sons name) you didn’t poop today at school? My son said no bob hurt me. My husband and I just looked at each other. I said oh and wiped his butt put on his pjs then I said son can we talk about this because mommy and daddy do not want bob to hurt you. My son acted goofy didn’t say much more. Needless to say the next morning I quit my job my children never went back. My son is in play therapy and talking I get email reports and the things I have to read are beyond disturbing I have to be normal healthy mom during the day then after our children go to bed break down crying in my husband arms at night. We do not talk about this in our home at all. Given we were instructed not to talk by the play therapist/police so we can have a better case. This happened earlier this year, even though my son is talking and saying disturbing things like I pooped on bobs hand when he was hurting me. It is still not enough for the police. I am so angry, sad and the guilt hurts the most. I feel like the system has failed my son. Not to mention this school is still open and he is still working there! What I would really like is any advice on how to help my son through this, is there any books I should read that anyone can recommend? I just feel lost in how to get him through this.