Hi guys! As some of you have read in my other posts, my daughter began anti puberty medication every 3 months with the expectation that we would be coupling this time period Of her being on this med (1 year) with intense EMDR therapy focused specifically on blood.  I have experience in how EMDR can create regression and new memories to surface but usually it doesn't happen so intensely, so quickly!

However in my daughter's case we've only just began to work on the most difficult item related to blood as of last Wednesday and almost this entire week she has had flashbacks with sound and Sensations that link back to abuse that she has not spoken very much about. This in turn has caused her to refuse to go in her room, let alone sleep in her room, so that she is now on the floor of our room right outside our door with her bedding going into our door so that we can't even close it. My husband insisted she was not allowed to actually sleep on our floor but she's insisted she has to feel like she's next to us in order to be able to fall asleep, so this is our compromise.  The positive side is that she's processing abuse that has to do with the 2 older boys and not just monster boy!  She hasn't done much of this, so, good...phsychologically.  HORRIBLE for my anxiety and sanity, but good for our healing journey!  She's been so anxious and depressed that she is barely functioning and I'm just trying to press her on to continue to confront and move past, which is working, but SO exhausting!  I'm not sure how it's going to work with reporting since the two older Boys Are Back In America and local.  Anyways, I'll keep you posted of what comes out.

So far...

-"DREAM"...a "boy" came in the night & stole this "little girl" through her window...she "froze & Got really tired" (her style of disassociating) and it was the 2 bigger boys that were the boy's "servant helpers" who actually carried her out the window and took her down to an underground place that was "brown" where she stayed in a "bedroom that was locked" where other girls were kept who had also been stolen and there was just a "bunkbed with 3 beds" for them and a bathroom attached to their room.  The boys ALL played video games out in the other area unless it was "break time when they let the girls out for 1 hour while they ate lunch."  During all of this dream telling she would interchange "little girl" with "I" numerous times.  She says she's been having flashbacks of this dream.

- she's been hearing "Taps on a window", "footsteps" approaching her, and a sensation as if someone is "picking" her up out of her bed & then "setting" her back down (which right after she "fell straight asleep" Even though her anxiety had been so bad she'd been shaking!  Dissociation I'm guessing.)  She said she's pretty sure she knows what memory The footsteps come from, and she thinks she knows where the Taps on the window comes from but she doesn't know where the stealing the girl from her bed part is from.

Please just pray for us to have courage & perseverence.