Thank you I appreciate the comments. It is good to find others that understand what we go through. Being a parent..it tears a piece of us apart too. We have to make decisions we never thought we'd ever make with our adult kids. I saw my son yesterday and found a caring friend (old friend, and out of the blue).who wants to try and help my son. I saw him clean ... for once .. and he spoke to my friend. I could see he was confused but I haven't heard him speak about his life so much before..in years. I'm hopeful and praying for him daily. I'm allowing hope to slide in a bit! 

I'm still figuring out this new site. Bless you all and Happy Mother's Day to the moms on here! ❤