Paranoia Support Group
Paranoia is a disturbed thought process characterized by excessive anxiety or fear, often to the point of irrationality and delusion. It is often associated with psychotic illnesses, sometimes schizophrenia, although attenuated features may be present in other primarily non-psychotic diagnoses, such as paranoid personality disorder and obsessive compulsive disorder.
Hi, I'm new here. I've not been diagnosed with paranoia/delusions, but I haven't brought it up to my therapist yet. I feel very alone and like my therapist doesn't believe me when I tell him what's going on with me. I'm getting very desperate.
Since a young age, 8, I've had major depressive disorder and things spiraled from there. I got diagnosed with an anxiety disorder at 19 and recently my therapist is suspicious of bipolar disorder. I'm now suffering from auditory/visual hallucinations and what I thought was my anxiety kicking into overdrive is what I now suspect might be paranoia. I'll be in my room and suddenly get an unnerving feeling and I clam up. I lock my bedroom door and hide under my blankets pretending to be asleep but I can't explain why. I feel like something bad is going to happen. I think someone is trying to come into the house and hurt me. On top of that, I was once very social and I've been isolating myself because whenever my friends call to hang out or make plans, I get waves of paranoia that my friends are trying to lure me and are plotting to kill me. I had a friend call me and ask to come over which I was fine with at first so I got in the car to drive there. About halfway there I started thinking I was driving to my death. I kept seeing my friends standing around waiting for my arrival to attack me. It was so bad that I turned around, went home and fed them a lame excuse. I'm so lonely but too terrified to hangout with anyone and I don't trust anybody. Are my suspicions of paranoia fair? Does anyone else think their friends are trying to hurt them?
Sorry if this was hard to keep up with or if it was confusing. Writing this in a desperate ramble.
I totally understood and felt what you were talking about. Ive never heard anybody else with similar thoughts and feelings. Although i do not have hallucinations, whenever i close my eyes i see a false reality of people wanting to hurt me or ready to run towards me. I am actually diagnosed with bipolar disorder and anxiety, but lately i think my anxiety has spiraled into paranoia. feel free to message me if you feel comfortable, and possibly talk about this intense fear that has seemed to overtake our lives. Good luck with everything. warm thoughts.
I suspect living with others is going to be what's needed, but probably something you'd dread doing...
I know it's hard living with strange ideas and not accepting them as reality. Try to spend all your time obsessing about a good game or book or something... Less time spent dwelling on distressing ideas is more time free from that pain...
The only solution I know is to live with others... Sorry