Paranoia Support Group
Paranoia is a disturbed thought process characterized by excessive anxiety or fear, often to the point of irrationality and delusion. It is often associated with psychotic illnesses, sometimes schizophrenia, although attenuated features may be present in other primarily non-psychotic diagnoses, such as paranoid personality disorder and obsessive compulsive disorder.
This is a newer thing. Kinda not, but it's grown in its intensity. To top it all off, my accounts all got hacked and changed. Multiple accounts (my emails, DS, Whisper, my bank account, Facebook, etc.). I found emails from DS conversations from long ago. I feel like everyone's out to get me, it's bad. I literally went from Mass to Florida for the last month because I was scaring my siblings. I'm still paranoid, and I called my aunt who I disowned years ago because I needed someone. I feel like everyone's out to get me. Everyone says I'm crazy, but I got to the point where I was suicidal. I'm doing a little better today, but I feel like everyone's out to get me. Doctors, social security, cops, my ex, his family, my friends, literally, EVERYONE. I have nothing to hide, but I'm scared I did something wrong. I literally have suicidal thots about 20 times a day. It got to the point where I'm questioning dropping out of school. All of this surrounds my ex too. I'm scared to breathe so I hyperventilate when my anxiety gets intense. How do I deal?
I also start to feel like everyone is out to get me sometimes so I have to tell myself that not everyone is. But it is still extremely hard for me to trust.