Paranoia Support Group
Paranoia is a disturbed thought process characterized by excessive anxiety or fear, often to the point of irrationality and delusion. It is often associated with psychotic illnesses, sometimes schizophrenia, although attenuated features may be present in other primarily non-psychotic diagnoses, such as paranoid personality disorder and obsessive compulsive disorder.
I'm not really sure if I'm in the right place, or even doing this the right way, but oh well.
I am 18 years old. From as far back as I can remember I have been so beyond paranoid that it's ridiculous. When I was a kid, I knew that I was going to be abducted and murdered..to the point where I was afraid to leave the house. Even on the hottest of summer nights I would pull the covers up to my neck because I was scared of the person in my room, and sleep with an arm across my back.
Now, I know every kid has fears but this as just escalated. I have trouble walking through the house when there isn't a lot of light. I anticipate an attacker on my every turn. I check my closet and under my bed multiple times before going to sleep because in my heart I know there is someone down there. At night I have to have all of the curtains or shades shut because I can feel someone out there watching me every night. I walk around the house and re-lock and shut everything 4 or 5 times. I SNEAK around in my own house so the "intruder" every night doesn't hear me. As I look out the window now, into the darkness, I know someone is out there. Only when the sun comes up the next morning do I feel safe. I'm in college for criminal justice. I have to help the people that this actually happens to, not just paranoia.
This is controlling my life. I can't do anything..normal. I can't go out with people at night. I can barely leave my room at night to use the bathroom. Sometimes I break down in such fear that I cry and hope that whatever it is goes away. I know this can't be good for me... So many things are run by this, I could go on for hours.
I'm just looking for someone who understands. Thank you.
I am 18 years old. From as far back as I can remember I have been so beyond paranoid that it's ridiculous. When I was a kid, I knew that I was going to be abducted and murdered..to the point where I was afraid to leave the house. Even on the hottest of summer nights I would pull the covers up to my neck because I was scared of the person in my room, and sleep with an arm across my back.
Now, I know every kid has fears but this as just escalated. I have trouble walking through the house when there isn't a lot of light. I anticipate an attacker on my every turn. I check my closet and under my bed multiple times before going to sleep because in my heart I know there is someone down there. At night I have to have all of the curtains or shades shut because I can feel someone out there watching me every night. I walk around the house and re-lock and shut everything 4 or 5 times. I SNEAK around in my own house so the "intruder" every night doesn't hear me. As I look out the window now, into the darkness, I know someone is out there. Only when the sun comes up the next morning do I feel safe. I'm in college for criminal justice. I have to help the people that this actually happens to, not just paranoia.
This is controlling my life. I can't do anything..normal. I can't go out with people at night. I can barely leave my room at night to use the bathroom. Sometimes I break down in such fear that I cry and hope that whatever it is goes away. I know this can't be good for me... So many things are run by this, I could go on for hours.
I'm just looking for someone who understands. Thank you.
nice to meet you =)
if not medication, i would strongly recommend a psychiatrist just to get a professional opinion and course of action to help you with this.
it would include meds, i believe
i'm sorry you're going through this, but you seem like a very intelligent guy (your post is very well written), so i think with a bit of help, you could manage this quite easily.