I've suffered with panic attacks triggered by PTSD from a few different trauamatic events and they've been getting worse lately.
If i go out in public, I last about 10 minutes before I feel like I'm being followed or people are looking at me for too long and I'm afraid they're going to try to assault me in the middle of the mall. I know it's irrational but I'm afraid of most people (especially men) and if there's any loud noise I dissociate and pretty much black out. I don't know what to do anymore.
I can't go anywhere by myself, I'll last 5 minutes and even with people I'm comfortable with and know really well (best friend and parents) I STILL will only last no more than 30 minutes :(
First time posting here in OCD. Over the last few months I have struggled tremendously with irriational fears and intrusive thoughts. These OCD thoughts are EXHAUSTING. They create constant fears and constant "what ifs" that seem so real, but I know they are not. I am finding a doctor that can assist with medication because I am at the point where OCD is robbing my joy and my time with my family....
This morning as I was leaving for work, my stepmom told me that my grandma has a tumor in her lung and that it might be cancer. I'm praying that it isn't because I don't think her body is strong enough to fight it or to be put through chemo.I'm at work now and super distracted and I'm trying really hard not to freak out.