You are NOT crazy. You said it yourself, everyone's PAs are different. When i have minor ones, I don't have what you described, but lately, I have had quite severe ones, and I too feel like I am nuts, and losing touch with reality. As hard as it is, you HAVE to keep going and living your life. We cannot let them consume us. It's your mind that is doing this. Don't let your mind control you. YOU control your mind. I feel your pain. But don't give up on yourself. So many of us have them, and eventually they subside. If you are not seeing someone, I suggest cognitive therapy. Breathing, thought control etc. It helps, but you have to work at it..good luck

to kacey, we all have your thoughts
none of us go crazy, you wont either

kacey x you are not crazy, ur PA's sound just like mine, i panic at the thought of going crazy infront of ppl, but ive been told if i was really crazy, i wouldnt be worried or fear this, because to me it would seem normal.....see, we're not crazy!!!...i know how lonely life can be too....and sleeping!!! YES, im always sleeping.....not so much since i changed my meds, prehaps u should go back to the doctors...x

Kacey, Your not alone. I too am ashamed of my life, Feel like I'm going crazy and experience derealization. As much as I know that I'm not "crazy" I still have that underlying feeling that I'm not "normal" and different to everyone else. But I always try to remember - "the only normal people are the ones we don't know very well". Everyone has their own different problems in life. Take care. I'm here if you want to talk

I wonder if xanax, valium, or klonipin might help you. I checked out your meds. Antidepressants did NOTHING but bad for me. I am physically dependent on xanax but it has given me my life back.

You are only 35, there are still treatments to explore. You are young so your life is not wasted. I hope that you can find something that works for you and gives you peace.

Kacey,

I know what you mean with feeling like you are going crazy. I worry about that to. When I'm having a panic attack, I look in the mirror and see a stranger. I feel like I'm outside of my own skin. I have talked to my doctor and he said those are normal feelings. And those people that are really crazy or are close to going crazy are not even aware of it. If you think you might be going crazy, that is a sure sign you are not going crazy. That is what I try to tell myself over and over again, but that doesn't always help either.

hope u are feeling better today kacey..x ive had a lovely day in the garden , but all day ive had the panic signs, which has ruined my day really, we're still all here for you x yep! and ive felt like im just on the verge of craziness today,which CerylMC has also commented abt (if we think we're crazy ,we are not) x Stay strong x

Hi Kacey. I understand what you're saying. When I get a severe attack I feel like I'm out of control and going crazy. I take medication for the panic and for the most part have eliminated it. I also avoid alcohol, sugar and limit my caffeine intake. Depression can cause a lack of energy, but you also need to take good care of yourself to regain your energy.. Eat a good diet, taken vitamins, exercise.. I would suggest talking to your doctor about how you're feeling to see if he can change or increase your medication. The OCD, depression and panic is a medical condition. I would also suggest getting your thyroid and hormones checked as they can affect these conditions. You can't out think a medical condition. You need to be properly treated for it. Also.. get some sunlight.

I too have panic attacks like this but with the help of my group meetings and talking to my phone friends i am doing pretty good. you will too. I am starting mindfullness training soon and i am hoping this will help me out.

You're not crazy, you've never been crazy and you're not going to go crazy!! That is a TOTALLY normal feeling. I don't think there's one person on here who hasn't felt it at one point or another.
Panic attacks make you feel discouraged and make you lose hope because you put SOO much energy into it and then situations just blow up in your face. But you can turn it around- much easier said than done I know- but you just have to stay strong and keep working at it.
One of my friends told me a while back to do something EVERYDAY that scares me.. even if its the smallest thing, at least I challenged myself and felt GOOD about it, you know?
Take Care!!!!

Hey we all fear things that we shouldn't fear and are OK about things we should fear.We are just a little backwards when our PA takes over.

Thanks to everyone who responded to this entry and gave me words of support!

please know you ARE NOT CRAZY!!!! My derealization gets so bad that I can not by any means be alone. i am soscared about the way i feel when i get like that. just try to remember that you are not alone and it will be pass. there will be good days there will be bad, its how we control them or let them contro us. you are in my prayers

You are not crazy, I feel the same way as you sometimes. But try and push yourself it helps and helps to make us feel better about ourselves too.
Good luck!

I just went through a week from H*** and what i know is i had to push myself to do things like even going to 7/11 which is just uo the back lane not that far away at all.