Yes I think about ending it alot ,I do not want to live like this nor do you ,we must find something to help us,I had a pbad panic this morning I was so sick and scared I do not like being alone and I am alone a lot. I am on xanx, tried others but to many side effects. I lost my daughter and things are worse,but I have had GAD for most my life. Wish I could help more,just know your not alone and write any time,we can help each other,many hugs, Squarley

sending you big hugs!
yes i have but then i think of my daughter! are you really willing to break your daughters heart by killing your self just over an panic atatck what wont hurt you? you cant let these beat you hunny! you have to beat them! i have sufferd for 11 years on and off!
its really horibble, but what you have to remember is you can beat this and you will!

I'm not sure that I would end it at this point in my life. I could see myself cutting in order to try to escape in that way, Xanax scares me. I did use Klonipin at one time but liked it a bit too much I'm afraid. Thanks for your kind words.

dont cut yourself hun!
i know that you would do it to be in control but there are people here to help and support you! have you tryed any help line, papers bags blowing into one of them helps an lot.

As one panic disorder expert told me, panic disorder is nothing more than fear of panic. If I were you, I would go to the emergency room and tell them about your attacks (not because the panic attacks are dangerous... they aren't dangerous in anyway) but because you are having these feelings of self-harm, you should be admitted for a psychiatric evaluation. At that time, they may be able to get you started on medications that'll move you toward stabilization.

I would recommend the same course of action to Squarley. I am really sorry you guys keep feeling this way, and I do understand how it feels as I've been suffering from panic attacks for the past four years.

*** and by the past four years, I mean I've had them on and off (but not more than 8 of them). The past 2 months, however, I've been having them every other day it seems (and I just started medical school and its making it very difficult to focus in class indeed).

I am not suicidal. In my first post my wording may have seemed so. Desperate yes. I thought if I cut myself that it might make the attack go away. Started having panic attacks this time last year. I know because there is a yearly fair happening. I kept count and I was only having about one a month. The first one we called 911. I was also diagnosed with Stage 3 COPD in the next month and didn't really know if the problem was having a breathing problem. Seems it is both. One causes the other and so on. I am still trying to work. Taking it daily. Have trouble with the COPD. Over the last four days I have had three. I am having panic attacks about having panic attacks or so it seems. I already have a psychiatrist. I was diagnosed with bi-polar about 4 years ago after the birth of my son. I became manic after taking antidepressants. I am on a lot of meds. Some should help with the anxiety. Took Klonipin before and may ask for it again. Proble is they come on so quickly that I'm not sure if it will be worth it. May need something not as fast acting. If they continue I will go inpatient. It will mess up my world. I will if I have to, but not ready to ...

So So sorry,you are having a bad time, WE do have panic attacks from the fear of having another one ,its hard to break the cycle. I take a xanx as soon as I feel it coming on it is fast acting and slow it down, they want to switch me to klonipin ,its slow acting .but I am afraid to switch. My sister is bi polar and takes effecser iSpelled that wrong and thoracin I think,I miss spelled that to,she has had it for ten years, I have had anxiety and panic attacks most my life,My husband wanted to commit me ,thank God he did not' I have alot of health problems and lost two children a husband and cancer,so life can be hard ,we must hang in ther for our self and others in our life. I pray you find peace, many hugs Squarley

Yes, I have been tempted to cut while having an attack. I've given into that temptation. But in the long run I don't want to be cutting so I resist as much as I can. When you are in the middle of an attack it is so uncomfortable that you do want to try anything to make it go away. For me, I've learned to ride them through. I can't make it go away, so I lay down and try to relax despite the anxious feelings until it passes.

You said you splashed water on your face - I've done that too. Other suggestions I've heard and tried are holding an ice cube or sticking your finger in ice cream (yummy). One I really like is putting an orange in the freezer. Take it out during the attack and the cold helps, but also the scent and the texture of the orange help distract you from the attack.

Someone here said that panic disorder is simply a fear of panic. I don't see it that way. I can have a panic attack come on suddenly when I thought I was perfectly calm.

Don't cut yourself sweetie! I do understand how you feel because we all get frustrated and tired of having panic attacks. Klonopin has helped me more then any other medication. I hope that you can get started on a medication that will be helpful to you! You are in my thoughts and prayers! Sending lots of well wishes your way!

You don't have to be suicidal to be committed to a psych ward. I spent 8 days in one once and found it to be very beneficial. I got some good sleep, bitched about my problems, learned some great coping techniques, and talked to others about how it feels to have messed up emotions. I feel like you only want to cut yourself to divert your attention from the panic. There are so many healthier things you can do to distract yourself from panic. Sing a song or do math problems in your head. Read a book or work on a hobby. Pet your cat or whatever floats your boat.

this as happened to me and i thought i was the only one, i dont want to kill my self but i feel like cutting, God is my strenght i remember passages of the bible , repeit it and try to renew my mind everyday , God is the only solution