I have suffered from panic attack disorder, ptsd, agoraphobia, for a long time now panic disorder sense i was 15 and agoraphobia and ptsd for about 4 years now. I really want to leave this world but am very passive about it, i wish i could just press a button and pass on. I know how suicide leaves your loved ones made and guilty and wondering what they could have done and thinking of the things they didn't do . I have been in therapy and seeing doctors for years . Tried all meds and i do mean all . all that helps me is Xanax and i am now taking the Xr version it calms things down a bit. I have a gf of 6 years and our 2 kids. I feel as if im going to get to a point to where they are not enough to keep me here on the earth. Im scared and lonely. My life has been a roller coaster of ups and downs and good and bad more bad than good lately. I have gave my life time to get better but it only get better for a short while and i fall back down and fall hard. I hurt so deep inside to my soul. I pray I find the answer........
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