Panic Attacks Support Group

A panic attack is a period of intense fear or discomfort, typically with an abrupt onset and usually lasting no more than thirty minutes. Symptoms include trembling, shortness of breath, heart palpitations, sweating, nausea, dizziness, hyperventilation, and sensations of choking or smothering. Panic attacks can be very sudden, appear to be unprovoked, and are often...

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VioletOctober
VioletOctober
So I'm just going to babble thru this panic attack. Question..everyone with anxiety and depression and panic and mood swings..does anyone just feel so different and detached from the world? Like you just don't TOTALLY fit in anywhere? Its just. You feel what your mind is capable of doing and IS doingg to you is SO complex you find it almost impossible for anyone to really understand you as a person as well as what you're going thru? Lately I've been on and off with this little bouts of panic and depression and right now this is my first pretty much full blown attack in a while..i haven't been working. My last job was bartending and my boss was emotionally abusive to all of us and I just couldn't take it. Hard for me to focus to begin with..especially at such a high volume job. Now I just started training for a different bartending job and am nothing short of terrified. I feel so incapable sometimes no matter what I tell myself or others tell me...i get so flustered with myself and things..i stopped college because im not a school person and am all over the place. I've decided to start a shorter trade program for medical assisting because it's way easier for me to handle and I can see myself doing it..its on hold because I need money and I can't handle school AND work 7 days a week. Its something I have to figure out..my boyfriend and I are looking to move in within the next year when were both completely able and save more. Its almost like I just wish there wasn't so much confusion right now and my brain didn't always force me into overreacting. That's part of what's on my mind stressing me but I've just been so moody and getting so depressed and panicky and feeling almost hopeless for the reason I said and no reason at all at the same time...if that makes any sense. I can be so hard on myself and my mind tricks me into so much...im scared of life im scared of death and everything in between..almost as if there's no possible way out and that's even scarier..prisoner of my own mind. I really want a penpal who can relate to me...no one lives near me in NY on here...id love a mutual support system friendship:-) I love helping people because I know how it is and how hard it is to go thru..and I can definitely use all the help I can get!
Janet7
Janet7
Violet,

I can relate to feeling different from others, and have felt that way all my life - it doesn't all have to do (in my case) with my panic disorder, but having panic attacks doesn't help! I have learned to sort of "live around" this feeling, and have managed to have a few close friends - I think even individuals like ourselves who feel rather "alien" can find some person or persons whom we can relate to - but I know it is hard to find people like this. But you do have your boyfriend, so that is a positive in your life -

I can relate to your feeling like a prisoner of your mind - I tend to worry and feel anxious a lot - As I have experienced it, I tend to have "meltdowns" about situations in my life, and after I rant and rave and spew out my feelings, I can get to a place of reconciliation with the situation - at first I tried to calm myself down, and not express the feelings of anxiety, but I didn't find this helpful - it felt phony, given how I was feeling. My husband is usually the recipient of the "meltdown" rants, and I feel badly about this, but I am grateful to have someone in my life who will listen, even if he has no suggestions about overcoming the anxiety (and i don't really expect him to.)

The thing that has helped me the most is prayer and meditation, and releasing my anxiety or the problem which is causing the anxiety to God - basically, giving up control of the situations that make me anxious, because I can't change these situations, so I release them to God, Who can either change the situation or help me through it. I also have observed that almost all of the situations which have made me anxious have turned out OK - so I am realizing that I am making myself crazy for nothing - and even the situations that have come to pass in the way I was fearing were not as bad as I had thought they would be, and I was able to get through them -

I hope what I have written here has been helpful to some degree, and that you know you're not alone -

All the best, Janet
WishKittie
WishKittie
I suffer from panic attacks, anxiety and depression and I feel like there is no one in the world that could begin to try to understand all the things inside my head. I sometimes feel like I am on the outside looking in, Like I do not even know who I am in that moment. I find it hard to react to things around me because I am not always sure the things around me are happening the way I perceive them to be happening. It is such a weird feeling. A doctor perscribed Pristiq for me until I can begin seeing a therapist on October 29th. I hope a combination of light medication with occaisional therapy will help me work through my issues.
I am glad you left a job that was harming your mental health. I hope your new job turns out to be better and you are able to enjoy going to work(as much as anyone can enjoy working). I hope that you are able to earn enough money. I find lack of money and bills is the worst cause of stress in the world. Just think of how easy life would be if we did not owe each other anything we could just have what we need.
I hope one day you are able to continue your education and move in with your boyfriend.

Take Care :)
WishKittie
WishKittie
I suffer from panic attacks, anxiety and depression and I feel like there is no one in the world that could begin to try to understand all the things inside my head. I sometimes feel like I am on the outside looking in, Like I do not even know who I am in that moment. I find it hard to react to things around me because I am not always sure the things around me are happening the way I perceive them to be happening. It is such a weird feeling. A doctor perscribed Pristiq for me until I can begin seeing a therapist on October 29th. I hope a combination of light medication with occaisional therapy will help me work through my issues.
I am glad you left a job that was harming your mental health. I hope your new job turns out to be better and you are able to enjoy going to work(as much as anyone can enjoy working). I hope that you are able to earn enough money. I find lack of money and bills is the worst cause of stress in the world. Just think of how easy life would be if we did not owe each other anything we could just have what we need.
I hope one day you are able to continue your education and move in with your boyfriend.

Take Care :)
WishKittie
WishKittie
I suffer from panic attacks, anxiety and depression and I feel like there is no one in the world that could begin to try to understand all the things inside my head. I sometimes feel like I am on the outside looking in, Like I do not even know who I am in that moment. I find it hard to react to things around me because I am not always sure the things around me are happening the way I perceive them to be happening. It is such a weird feeling. A doctor perscribed Pristiq for me until I can begin seeing a therapist on October 29th. I hope a combination of light medication with occaisional therapy will help me work through my issues.
I am glad you left a job that was harming your mental health. I hope your new job turns out to be better and you are able to enjoy going to work(as much as anyone can enjoy working). I hope that you are able to earn enough money. I find lack of money and bills is the worst cause of stress in the world. Just think of how easy life would be if we did not owe each other anything we could just have what we need.
I hope one day you are able to continue your education and move in with your boyfriend.

Take Care :)
WishKittie
WishKittie
I suffer from panic attacks, anxiety and depression and I feel like there is no one in the world that could begin to try to understand all the things inside my head. I sometimes feel like I am on the outside looking in, Like I do not even know who I am in that moment. I find it hard to react to things around me because I am not always sure the things around me are happening the way I perceive them to be happening. It is such a weird feeling. A doctor perscribed Pristiq for me until I can begin seeing a therapist on October 29th. I hope a combination of light medication with occaisional therapy will help me work through my issues.
I am glad you left a job that was harming your mental health. I hope your new job turns out to be better and you are able to enjoy going to work(as much as anyone can enjoy working). I hope that you are able to earn enough money. I find lack of money and bills is the worst cause of stress in the world. Just think of how easy life would be if we did not owe each other anything we could just have what we need.
I hope one day you are able to continue your education and move in with your boyfriend.

Take Care :)
WishKittie
WishKittie
I suffer from panic attacks, anxiety and depression and I feel like there is no one in the world that could begin to try to understand all the things inside my head. I sometimes feel like I am on the outside looking in, Like I do not even know who I am in that moment. I find it hard to react to things around me because I am not always sure the things around me are happening the way I perceive them to be happening. It is such a weird feeling. A doctor perscribed Pristiq for me until I can begin seeing a therapist on October 29th. I hope a combination of light medication with occaisional therapy will help me work through my issues.
I am glad you left a job that was harming your mental health. I hope your new job turns out to be better and you are able to enjoy going to work(as much as anyone can enjoy working). I hope that you are able to earn enough money. I find lack of money and bills is the worst cause of stress in the world. Just think of how easy life would be if we did not owe each other anything we could just have what we need.
I hope one day you are able to continue your education and move in with your boyfriend.

Take Care :)
VioletOctober
VioletOctober
Thank you both..yes, ive always felt different regardless of my panic attacks as well..I do have some people who understand me. I find people like us to be deeper thinkers and maybe we just use our brains differently. Feeling like a prisoner of your mind unfortunately just comes with our disorder...the things that go on in my head are just completely crazy sometimes and yes yes yes the feeling of being detatched and being on the outside looking in is a main thing..almost like an out of body experience...like its not you anymore and you cant physically bring yourself to feel or be in the moment. One of the scwriest feelings..ultimately being out of control. It does feel good not to be alone